.Tuesday, April 17, 2007 ' 5:30 PM Y
The bell rings
I open my eyes
&
Its another new day for me
I look ahead
I think hard
But i'm not sure where i'm heading to.
This path is rather HarD
And That path is rather tough
there are so many things for me to decide
I'm gettin confused
So ya, Jus what is wrong with mE
I cant figure out myself.
I guess i'm a devil
I always dont know hw to be an angeL
though i tried
But i'm tired to try
There are certain things to Motivate u in Life
YEt at e same time,
there r things to PULL you strg Dw in ur Life
Sometimes i mite be e Cause to pull ur life Dw
And i mite be ur motivator to motivate u in ways
Same goes to any1 of u
Be the devil or the Angel...
Its so unpredictable...
Live e way u wan it to be
Why even bother.
It sounds Easy ...
YEt difficult to do it...
=]
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Do you love me more than i do?
.Wednesday, March 21, 2007 ' 5:01 PM Y
Well,
Everyone will think that every yr will be a brand new yr
A brand new day
I tot that too...
Rmb i say i pick up 50$ in the lift the v 1st DAY of 2007?
I tot its a good start?
Then things went wrong...
One by one left... with a unhappy sad sorrows face...
After i join the comp with SnaAp
We failed to make it
And feel we really... suck?
Which u find tt u're really nt gd @ it [i mean myself]
Ur dear friend couldnt mk it to support u on livE
Jus a sms... and told ya sry i cldnt mk it
We didnt get thru and get alil shock by wad e judges say
MY mood Went dw...
and u tot ur frenz wld be waiting outside
But it came out... only a few waited
U jus want to join a comp, [another comp i mean]
But ended up things get confusing
Heard lotsa thingy
Being push here and there
which i myself oso dun und WHY.
Which mk myself a silly and stup one...
Ya is me... everything is me...
Ur good friend ended up not toking to u...
U kept all e pain
and cldnt endure it anymore
U say it out and tok it out
Tot things will turn out better
But it totally go another waY
Ended up we both .. shut up and ignore each other
We trained hard for the upcoming comp , funka 08'
But it jus Cancelled jus like tt
due to... NO Sponsor? [i guessed]
Disappointed...
Coz we really hope to compete on funka...
But it turns out to be "Zero Hope"
thats my last funka with nra...
I saw the one tt i once luv
with another girl...
I see hw i hurt ppl which i dun wish to...
I saw the failure in me
I cldnt see any success in me
I'm lost
I see how friends were...
When i'm down
I dont even noe who to approach
I jus hide and tear...
My smile is fake infront of anyone of u...
I cldnt br that happiness out
Only Cld Recall tt happiness in e pasT
Its cold out there...
I cldnt breathe at times
I hope someone wld come and save me
I really hope ...
It kills me inside...
Who will understand...
Nobody will...
Nobody will eva und hw each other really feel...
Plz dont tell me u know...
U wun noe...
Coz we are all different
Our path, our way, our life
Isnt the sAme
we wont know
we wont feel the same
Its getting worse.
[[ I see her smile, but i see sorrows in her]]
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