I read Both Von's and Yen's bloG

I tears...

I luv u dad
I luv you mum


Do u luv ur parents?

They mk me wanted to blog abt my Parent too

I do luv them

I shout to them too when im in a baD mood

I pissed off at times when they dont have $$$ to give me

And i noe i shldn't...

I start to work, i Giv my mum mthly allowance
I tell myself, i mus earn alot of $$$ when i was young
to support my parents
TO GIv them the best without letting them to Suffer

Yet i haven fulfil the words i've said.

I feel irritated at times when my mum wans to tok to me
When i'm watching tv,
eating my dinner...
Doing my work...

She just wan to tok to me...

But sometimes i refused to...
I told her; i wan to Watch tv, don tok to me.

Ya... Stop...
Tk a look at ur parents...

They are getting older...

When i was y0ung, im always with my parent
Stick to my mummy, stick to my Daddy
Slp tgt side by side,
Watch Tv show tgt,
Luff tgt,
Eat tgt.
Every wkend we will go out to eat...
4 of us... Dad,Mum,Bro and me

when im having a fever,
My parent start to worried.
They will chk on me in e middle of e nite.

They br me out to hv fun
My mum help mi to bath

My br0 and i watch Tom and jerry tgt
while my mum feeded us on our dinner.

My mum br mi to sch everyday
My dad drive mi to sch when i was in Pri 6.

Slowly... we dont hv this habit anymore

We become strangers.

I dont tok to my dad...
jus because we dont see each other often
We no longer look at each other
He dun even gt anything to scold me

We have nth to talk abt...

nothing...

my family wun tel each other hw we feel.
nv did we.
Coz we dun have tis kinda habit.

I feel sad

Today i told my mum,
I wan to cont to study.
She din encourage me to
Coz she noe... its going to cost alot

Deep dw inside me
Im hurt
Why cant u support me...
I jus wan to study...

And i walk away...
with a unhappy face
I noe i shldnt.

I sms my dad
Asking can i cont to study...
He called me,
Asking hw much will it cost.
I smiled.
And sae: I will tel ya when i noe.

I know they start to wry...

no money...

but stil will wish their daughter can cont to study...

Thank you dad...
Thank you mum...

Even if i cant go to study,
Is okie...

I know its hard... =]

But i still luv u two.

wheneva i tok to my dad,
i feel happy deep dw.
Thnk you daddy

So whats nexT?

SLack at home?
wAsh dishes...

Do household...

ERm... Tough one


I wish i cld continue to studY

I wish i know wad i want

I wish... i noe what to do


Unfortunately

Idiot me, Dont know anything

I always tot things will flow bit by bit

No nid to plan

Things will come...

But sad to SAY
Im absolutely fuckin Wrong^

Shld i cont to study?

Or i start work now till e enD for my life

I Dont wan to start wk at e age of 21...
though i started

And i end it...

Neva sae u wan to do this and that bcoz of daNce

Coz no one outside will appreciate and und dance

They will jus giv ya e looks like... ARH? DANCE?????
U kidding me?

they do... trust me

Im stuck rite here at this point...

And i got to pick it up fr here

AlL over agaiNx

Start from the top

But where shld i start...
I hv no ideas

Studies...

i doubt my dad can support me

Poor daD
have to wk so hard for their kids

Poor mum
gt to wry here and there

which one is e best way...

That;s life...
i know...

If let mi have e chance to tell Everyone...


Wat wld u want to say if u are going to put "Dance" Aside?

This thought came into my mind...
Wad wld i like to say?

There's definitely al0t...

Pardon me...

But this thought jus came into my mind...
So i wld like to say:

It has been a amazing journey [Sounds like i gt some AWARD!]
I do not have Much Confident when i was Young...
I tend to hide myself or being alone without letting ppl
to Notice me...

I'm scare of... bascially everything
I cannot be alone for sure...
I'm scare...

But i try stepping out for being a timid
I join NRA myself...

The first thing i wld luv to sae...
I want to thnks Ngee Ann poly to have this Dance Club
Called NRA... [HAHA yesyes... i gt some award.. act em0]

Without this NRA
My life wld be Damn bored, meaningless
How abt you? if u nv Start dancin,
Hw wld ur life be?

The first one i met, Ariel...
That idiot black one
Damn noisy
I nv see a person can be as noisY as mE~

2nd, i met Sk...
He is another dude...
But a gd dancER
Everytime i stand bside him during dance class
Im tinking... : KAO Y he can Catch so FAST!
I still trying REAL HARd,open my Eyes big to SEE.
SK jus catch all e steps like nobody business.
U... watch out... lolx

Then my budDy,
She gave mi alot of motivation to cont in NRA
If not...
I tink i foreva ZI BI there
Thanks faTty.

I rmb i saw Jolene,
Dancing to Ai de Zhu Da Ge...
Wa kao... i tink she's damn Freaking GOOD
My react was... WAh so good... noe hw to dance to MTV's
NAIVE , lolx

First half yr,
basicalli i learn nth much
Onli alil here n there...

tiLL Ann came in.
Her warm up realli craZY,
I was tinking... HAIZ SO DIfficulT -.-
Do head isolation...
TO the LEFT, To the Rite...
Nb... i jus cant get it...

How Can a human head go lefT n RItE?

Well... i can do it now =]
Who sae cant... ~~~ idiot

I... gt thousands millions of words to Say
Its so much to say...

Seriously,
I love u guys. [ya im emo as much as ABC]
I met amaZing PPL

I get to know becca more
Thruout the comps we had join tgt.
NRA Lush and Lil bratz br the both of us
TO become Gd frenz.

Zut-Manifesto-Nra Lush
let me get to noe jO better

If there's a chance, i Wld luv to Dance
With NRA Manifesto's girls the same Cheoro again

Will there be a chance? thats my greatest wish for dance

Allegra, Wq, Delin, Jo, MAe, Myself.

SO far, i luv this grp e most =]

From: Zut - NRA Rebirth, NRA Manifesto - RTHK -
Nra Lush - Clush - Lil Bratz - Rough Cut - SnaAp

I'm glad i had gd friends like;
Von, Yen, Ariel, Cmt, Glen, Bec, Jo, Fred, miNz

Cmt and Glen;
Tk e same bus home
Brought us to become the dopest COGY
=]

Yen;
Across e road, tk my hp no fr me.
Tok rubbish...
We became e beSt stranger frenz evA

Fred;
I cant rmb hw...
But somehw we cliCK cliCk Click
He's crazY

oH and the most Retard in e whole wide world
Guess who?
TERencE!!!
Foreva....... Retard like jameS

Okie back to Serious..
What i have gaiN?

Beside learning how to danCe,
Beside being more conFident, and not Scare anym0re
The most impt is
I get to noe each and everyone of u guys in NRA

My life fill with love, pain & happiness.

When my world bcame dark,
U guys fill colors in my life.
U guys bring mi back.

Im thankful to hav u guys with m3.

mayB thats e greatest things eva in my life so Far

U guys mite nt feel e same.
But i noe i wont lie for sure [Though i always lied]

Memories always kip inside me
Can u feel it?

I treasure and i cherish



{{ Tts only if one day i nid to leave }}
{{ tts parT of the delication to all }}
[[ Dont sae i CRAZY ]]
I'm jus saying "IF"

Why give up so easily

Why do u hav to giv it all up...

What's so wrong in ur life

Why torture urself to be a lonely one

Whats going on ...

Don't give up jus like that

I dont want you to giv up urself
I want u to be happy
I want you to know there's alot of them Do care abt u

U rejected it
And u say no one is there for u

They do rite?
But u rejected it...

Why ...

Is that what u realli want it to be?
U can give up in everything in ur life
But not urself at least...

Nv say u wan to giv up on urself

It hurts somehw when i hear it fr you

When i tell him :
Ya i know i mean Nth to u

But he told me:
U dont mean nth to me

Ya, i feel happy
At least I'm sth in wadeva way


But how cld u say u wan to giv up on urself
U sae u are almost there
There?
there... to giv up urself
so no ones will even care anymore


I'm concern whether u r doing well anot
Whenever i see u're doing well
I'm happy deep dw
U meant sth to me in some ways
no matter wad i had hear

I noe i wun hate u for long...

Thruout my life...
I nv hated u at all
Even if i sae it out,
It doesnt count
It jus for tt moment when i'm real hurt

I wan u to be happy
U promise me before
But i noe u din tk tt promise seriousli

I told u b4,
U can come to me if u wan to.
U jus smiled to end tt conversation

U appear to be a happy one jus like everyone did
But u closed urself up deep inside
no one cld open the door in you

Not even me...
I cld nv open tt door for u

Mayb others cld
or mayb they cant t00

I may forgive...
I may ignore...
I may leave it...

But i nv forget...

I kip it inside me
The smile
The fun
The love
The memories

Is all inside me.

Now i'm totalli concern abt
u r going to giv up on urself

I pray u will carry on...
Carry on with wadeva u have...


***I pray***

So how's everything?

Everything Seems alrite to me.

I feel better

But i guess it will only last for awhile

It's always like tis i gueSs

HAppinesS won't last for long...
Agree???

Sometimes...
U jus hope to have someone in ur life
That make u the special one

Sometimes...
U hope that everything is REAL for tt moment

Sometimes...
U jus hope that Time Wil jus Stop
for you

Sometimes...
U hope that fairytales does exist

Cinderella, Lil' mermaid, Beauty & the Beast...
Thats my fav DIsney cartooN show When i was Young =]

Oki... i'm childish.


But sometimes things doesnt went the wAy u want it


Mayb there's a guy who always stay by ur side
But he isnt the one you luv

Luv is hard to define
U cant just sae...
I like you

Means you like tt person alot...

That's rubbish

U always gt to go thru alot
Before u realli noe wads luve

How deep / much u noe abt love?

U cant sae he's cute or handsome
and u sae yes i like u...

Rubbish....

Start from Young;

A baby.
Cryin, Slpin, Drinkin milK
Basically , Enjoy life

For me,
After being a Baby
I went to Kindergarten Strg.

During K1, my eng was n0t bad...
my studies oso n0t bad

Dont know wad happen to me,
From K2 onwards...
My studies like shit
I guess i'm being Cursed***

Thru my life...
I met alot of U

When i was pri sch
my life was okie only
Till i met LISHI my sis =]
It became better

We went to the same Sec sCh
JVS~~~
Our life not so bad...
Then we met Fabian, Gerry, Chye, ZP, etc

Shi, gerry,fab and i was in NPCC

STUNN? O.o

ya all of us are Stuff Sergent maNx
NOt shy...
Lolx
I noe shimin thru NPCC Too =]

We train hard tgt...
We join a camp craft comp
which Sir and Mdm choose a few of us to compete
WA... my camp craft GOod okie!

YUP Sec Sch i enjoyed alot
Be it NPCC, SCH, CLassmates...
RoxS =]

POly...
WAHAHA
Beside missing... the days of skipping class
Nv go for Proj !!!
GIV alot of fuckin Excuses...
And Ah VOn is another one who came to seek help From me
Asking mi hw to giv excuses... -.-
OPS
SRY mates tt i had lied to u guys

Im stil y0ung and naive tt time
i din mean to...
haha forgiv me alrite
i luv u guys =]

Tking Poly clinic mc with Ah dou and Yenity
We r the regular customers
Then we go to Dance...
LOLX
Wtf rite...

but who cares ~~~ hee

I met amazing ppl in poly
I met VON, YeN, Bec, Jo, Clement, GLen, Ariel
and met retard ppl like TER...
yes he is retard...

I met uncles like... JAmes, Eugene, ALEx, Zx, Bjon

I met ppl who luvs to wear boxers ard ... Fredy

I met Fattys too... Those i mention above... the amazing ppl
ppl like Von , yen , Glen and ariel

Wahaha!

We dance tgt...
We wk hard for every comp
No matter hw pissed we r
No matter hw pissed till we wan to slap each other
No matter... Hw stress we are

We all wk hard tgt

Everyone see how we grow...
She is the one who gave majority of us the chance
Ann... =]

We r proud to have her
She is the dope dope one i met...

I met g00d dancers like...
White Rythm, B.A.D, Streetsoulz,
Steezers, illers etC...

I met most amazing ppl
beside Our ann...
Ryan,
Patrick,
Lionel,
and lots more =]

My life changed after i decide to Dance

How amazing it is...
wordless...

and ppl i met outside...
During comp...
Walking in e street
in e cluB

In e club... always ppl cant recognise u.
coz its dark!
LOLX
I met bastard too =]

I met ppl tt tryin to noe u
Giv ya drinks ...
blabla
I met dancers t00
Interesting

But some r weird

i met bastard as well in e club
Thnk you, u r real bastard.

LOVE:
hows my luv life?

Nth much i guess

- pri sch i fall for this gd looking guy - for 2 yrs
[not tgt anyway, too young la idiot]

-Sec Sch : i met my Ex Bf, Tgt for 4 yrs, wooo
Amazing

-Poly : This cute guy, my classmate.
We do proj tgt, Study tgt, Teach him wadeva i can
COz he nid to RETEST for some sub.
After 2 mths, he quit sch, Woooo BYEBYE, he's gone jus like tt! CLAP

-POly: i like this guy but i cant get tgt with him
for some reasons. yup we r stil GD frenx =]

-Follow by this amazing guy in my life
A Dancer.
A guy who i dun und wad he want.
Foreva no specific anS from him.
Excuses...
Till now i finally und =]


- I met this guy in nra, but we broke off after 2 mths
due to certain reasons, my fault

-Then a guy met him in club
Well, Bastard la, this is all i cld sae =]


I met so many U in my life
I'm glad and i ve no regret
All the ups and dw
IS jus part of the journey
All e love...
All e tears...

Everytime i jus got to go thru all the shit...

Shit always happen

Hw worse can it be...

i had Tried all,

wadeva it is...

i feel tired


sometimes when u mk effort to sth
it doesnt mean tt it will all end it Good

It will actualli jus fuck it up...


hw true can a person be..
it nv been true.










Its over

but thnks...

Maybe its worth trying
Its always better than nth

Do u guys think its worth?
Mayb u all din even realised its actualli for U all

Perhaps its jus another gatherinG
Perhaps its jus sth tts called "entertain"


0r maybe its nothing at alL

Jus happily eat and talk

then when mood's goes wrong
One by 1 jus left

Tryin to giv a smily face and say bYe.
Maybe i din plan it well enuff...
Ya i tot it wld be a gooD one

BUT when you always thought sth is GOOD
It always ended up BADLY

okie ... maybe i tink TOO much

wateva?

Before things started...
I saw $50 in e lifT
and i pick it up
I tot i was abit abit aBIT lucky only
Then i Saw RAINBOW when i went dwstairs to buy stH

I stand there and watch it, its jus infront of ME.

I feel luckY

then i thought maybe Its a GOOD StarT

Ha starting... okie
till the end
yap it wasnt so good
i expected it
and i noe it will happened

So i leave it.

Dun sae i bad attitude
I didnt.

I tried my best
but im too tired to hang on

yeS i admit
i do giv up in certain things
which mk mi a "Dont care abt anything" person
I didnt mean to
I am nt strong to Hold on to certain things anym0re
Too many things happened this past 2 yrs

due to all these...

I became a so called " Lazy one "
I dont dare to rmb e past
which mk mi forget things easily
Sometimes is gd to forget
But to a certain level tt
i can even forget wad i hv done or wear Yest?

I cant be bother abt wadssup with u?
due to the certain extend tt
I dun realli realli check it out ..
wad happen to all my dear Frenz
i totally duno why they r sad... why they em0 blablabla

I lose interest in alot of things
I dunno hw to realli luv a person
I give up hopes
I duno hw to savea friendship
I kip all these pain inside me

I'm nt saying tt things are realli bad
But things happened jus like tt
how r u going to accept everythings tt jus pop out in ya lifE?

To me...
I totally lost in ways
I duno why am i here
I dun see any future
nothing much

Maybe i din giv up
i jus leave aside

Can u feel hw i feel?

Can u hear my heart's cryin?

Do u noe hw pain it is at times?

Do u noe hw sad it cld be?

Hw wld u noe...
If u nv felt it b4...

Its always tearing inside...
--Always--

OranGe
20th June 1985
Gemini
Dancer

I always forget to forget YOU

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