Life is beautiful

But to me
Life is always a story

It depend on how u want to write the story

Life doesn't seem to be as beautiful as you've thought

I see how bitter she feels
I see how depress in his blog
I see how sad she is when i try talking to her
I see how pain he is
I see fake smile in everyone of you

I see how painful it is in myself

throughout the journey
I see alot of laughters
at the same time,
I see sadness

What have i done thru out this journey?
I found dance

Wad have i taste thruout this journey?
Bitterness


I see my dearest frenz cry
I saw hw pain she is
YEt i dunno the main reasons
I feel useless sometimes
Yet i cldnt do anything


I cried for him
Day and nite in e past
I suffered inside me

what is wrong with me...
Why i cldnt let all go

I hate myself when i see him

I hate him pretending everything was nth

I cldnt throw away e memories he gave

though its fading'

He's e one i wan to giv my whole life jus to love him
that feelin was strong

But not nw anymore...
Its always a dream to me

I added him into my story
A bitter one

Mayb u guys are sick of my entries
Jus becoz its always abt Him

But who knows, when u fall for a person deeply / unknowning
U will feel everything abt u is abt the one u luv
Yet u cant forget and u cant pretend nth has happen

Forever love...
Does it really exist?

Firstly i Got to Congrats "In Da Hse"
For getting ChamP for Jim beaN Dance Comp

I'm so Proud 0f u guys.

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On tt day, my m00d wasn't g00d at all the moment i woke up

I noe its going to be shiT again.

Ya, we have a HARD time getting a CAB
to go dbl 'O' , road block... due to ChingAy -.-
AlL the cabs = on cAlL...

Pissed... but yet i ctrl**

The moment we reached, QUe super l0ng

AS i walk to e que,
I saw hiM rite to the end
I Paused... [[ Dont ask me why i paused ]]
I'm too afraid to walk further dw

I turn back and face ariel...
I say ; i saw him, damn [[sth lidat]]

Yet i've gt no choice
But to join the Que,
And SAy Hi to him
a fake smile on me again...
I can be an actress
Coz i realli act well at tt moment

Let me tell u hw i feel the moment i Saw him;

Ur heart beat st0p
U freeze there for a few secs
Ur pain came back
Jus like there's a Knife STAB rite into my Heart
Bleedin out of a suddeN without knowing why
Clueless why i'm like that
Dont dare to walk towards him

Thats how i feel for THAT 1.89748890 Secs***

I guess its been too long since i met hiM
And too sudden...


I ctrl
Realli am ctrlling
After jug and jug of drinks...
Finally, i cried

I'm surprised tt i've cried
jus becoz its to0 painful to endure anymore

I saw him with another girl
I'm transparent.
Im nth, nth from the sTart

I see smile on his face with another one
Though i nt sure who is she
Though im nt sure is tt smile FAKE?

I jus feel the pain in the past
And... its really hurt

Kip cryin.... again and again
Then i st0p
coz I'm afraid to let the rest of em got worried

Tearing
Im tearing again...

Why do i feel e pain
when i alrdy decide to let all g0
I tot i've forgotten all

But yet it prove tt
That pain is still inside me
Stay inside me...

He create it
without solving it

Thats the only time i hated him...
Jus for tt moment

Happy New Year to Everybody out there =]

Firstly, my new year was fine
I went to Msia'

Every year is the saMe
Is jus the matter hw u mk it to be Fun
Am i rite?

Basically... u visit ya relatives and
SAE HAPPY NEW YR, Get the hong bao
sit dw and eaT ... til u fat like : VOn...


Ya i stay at the hse... kip watching Tv Show
then i will 'Qin bu Zi Jin' tk those food to eat

My life there...
Basically is EAT, Watch Show, SLp
Same goes to Ah chao ...

Its been a yr i nv been to Msia'
when i reach there,
I saw my 2 cute lil cousins
Zi Qian, Zi Qin
Adorable...
that time i saw em, Qin was stil younG
now... she's freaking active
She's nt afraid of any0n3...
PS: As long as u gt food, she will friend with u FOR Sure

I neva see a kid, Can Eat 24 hrs!
Non sTOp...
Anything also EAT!
Anything oso Drink...
BEER OSO DRINK!
Normally a kid will unknowning drink it
She drink and she appear to be Wa, Nice drink
and not showin a " EEEEK " face
Spicy food oso Eat, Den tel u: NOT SPICY...
I let her eat OTA, She eat again...
Canno tk it... Too spicy for her...
Know waD? She tk a cloth ... for ppl clean legs de...
Wipe her Tongue.......................................... -.- ""


Dope...
KAwaii...
her mum call her ah PUI
Coz... round round fat fat de... Eat non stop~

Ah Qian loves Ah chao,
But wheneva chao is nt ard,
I'm the replacement,
Im her no.2 haha

the rest of my cousins..
OOOhhh Grown up...
Big Big, but nt as big as mi n chao
We r always the eldest among them =]

I see the bonding in everyone...
when my uncle r in deep trouble...
I tot no one wil wan to help him...
he went hiding...
The 1st day of nY [chu yi]
Every1 called to ask him to come back,
he gt no face to come back,
He's afraid...
He cried over the phone...

I luv my uncle...
When i was young,
I luv him the most among so mani uncles [Shu Shu]
Now he's in trouble...
Hw i wish i cld help him
But... i duno hw to help
so i only cld prAy for him...
he will be fine =]

2nd day..
We played mahjong...
I tink im pro...
They all play v slow.
But i nv win.
hahah!

I went to the 2nd storey to play with my dearly cousins
Ya .. we play childish one
Cannot play mature de..
Will Out diao...
They stil young...
the most i tink nt more than 15yrs

Play 007 bang! tts wad we play every yR
Standard!
Is fun playin wit em..
u Try play with ur frenz, SURE BORING
Coz all Big liao, aCt mature... lolx

Play memory games...
Play alot alot of childish de...
FUN...
Ah chao 's mei oso noe hw to play 007 bang...
Damn Funi.. [excitin game]

Yea.. end of e dAy...
when we're all going baq to Spore..
AL.. yi yi Bu she...
All went out to see us off...
kip waving...
haha i ask em wan my autograph? haha
ALL SHOW ME A... Eh face...

Though this yr no... "Yen Hua" No "lion dance"
nvm, i feel it...
i Feel the new yr mood =]

I act stup... in order to be part of the kids...
Same goes to Chao... he quite stup too
haha!

Ya... tts it...
Hope u guys have a wonderful yr aheaD..

Muacks

How cld you forget a person totally?

Time flies...
She tot she can forget everything

she seldom or shld i say Hardly get to see him

But why everytime ppl mention his name

Her heart feels heavy.
Feel pain.
And she became a lil un natural....


Then she asked herself;
tot everything's over?
And no longer bother by it?

Why do she feel heavy when the name is mention

Or she saw his friends...
She somehw feel... weird


If there is sth to call forget
I hope im the first to forget him and
everything abt him

Im nt feeling sad rite nw
Jus tt i realised everytime the name is mentioned
I "she" Feel heavy...

and try to smile =)

PHew.....

[[It wasn't meant to be]]
[[you're my soul]]
[[and you took it away]]





coz you...


=]

thanks for hearing me out,
thanks for giving mi a chance to say all out

i feel much better...
thnks cmt

i hope this will end soon
and back to the normal days

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Oh ya, i didnt get to see him
though he came to spore.
ermmm i tot i cld...
but no one help me either

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And i didnt get to see him too
ya got stone awhile

But im fine...
jus dont know when i cld see him againz
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Sometimes i hope i d0n have any friends

Sometimes i try too hard

so i dont wish to try so hard anymore

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Heart, all the things will soon be gone
heart, i know i've been hard on you

Heart, we can do this together =]

only u can help me to pull it thru.

Give it time

and i know i cld someday

Heart , You will always be my only friend.

Sometimes i dont even know why

Sometimes i wish i could know whats going on

Sometimes............
Life is wonderful

But there are times when life's tough

Just yesterday...

U told me that I am always your good friend for life
I smiled, and trust your word

Just yesterday....

U promise that u will take care of urself
But u didn't

Just yesterday

We become buddy
I am happy and glaD to have u as one


Just yesterday

the 4 of us go home tgt for the v first time
I find it interesting

Just yesterday

We walk all the way home
Just because we wan to save $$$

Just yesterday

I took part in my very 1st Dance Comp'
It was funx

Just yesterday

I met the guy tt i wanted to luv for life
But it was crap

Just yesterday

I injured myself

Just yesterday

I realised how much i luv u guys...


To me it happened..
And ended it fasT

Everything Seems...
jus pass...
Its like yesterday only


And nv can u turn back tim3

I miss the days
the old days that we had

ya life..
It always has changes...
if not life wun be tt interesting At all

But hw much changes can one tk...

Fake smile...
Trying to put a fake smile infront of everyone...
Jus bcoz its different compared to las time

No longer can feel the warmth
It wun be the same anymore


I miss Von
I miss Yen
I miss Ariel
I miss Glen
I miss Clement...


Its sad tt i no longer tok to cmt anymore
not as much ba...
Maybe we will nv hv tt Friendship again
It hurts me............ =[
I miss COGY

Sometimes i dont even know why

Sometimes i wish i could know whats going on

Sometimes............
Life is wonderful

But there are times when life's tough

Just yesterday...

U told me that I am always your good friend for life
I smiled, and trust your word

Just yesterday....

U promise that u will take care of urself
But u didn't

Just yesterday

We become buddy
I am happy and glaD to have u as one


Just yesterday

the 4 of us go home tgt for the v first time
I find it interesting

Just yesterday

We walk all the way home
Just because we wan to save $$$

Just yesterday

I took part in my very 1st Dance Comp'
It was funx

Just yesterday

I met the guy tt i wanted to luv for life
But it was crap

Just yesterday

I injured myself

Just yesterday

I realised how much i luv u guys...


To me it happened..
And ended it fasT

Everything Seems...
jus pass...
Its like yesterday only


And nv can u turn back tim3

I miss the days
the old days that we had

ya life..
It always has changes...
if not life wun be tt interesting At all

But hw much changes can one tk...

Fake smile...
Trying to put a fake smile infront of everyone...
Jus bcoz its different compared to las time

No longer can feel the warmth
It wun be the same anymore


I miss Von
I miss Yen
I miss Ariel
I miss Glen
I miss Clement...


Its sad tt i no longer tok to cmt anymore
not as much ba...
Maybe we will nv hv tt Friendship again
It hurts me............ =[
I miss COGY

OranGe
20th June 1985
Gemini
Dancer

I always forget to forget YOU

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