.Thursday, June 29, 2006 ' 6:10 PM Y
im always behinD
i tel myself is okie =]
yet the feeling... suxs
it hinder somewhere deep deep dw...
when sth reali strike u...
den it wil burst it out...
i hate tis.......
but whY...
being throw aside everywhere...
no matter wad is all abT
I'm seriousli tired of iT!
i tried so hard......
yet i stil being thr0wn behind...
nth g00d will EVA happen to me...
nothing...
im always e unlucky one...
if u think im not gd enuff...
tel me
duN come giv me stup excuses...
i dun like it [specified to anything]
DUN be cold n hot like a machine...
Dun u EVA feel like... toking to me den U tok to me.
Dun u EVA feel like calling me den u CALL me
Dun u EVA feel like asking mi out den u ASK me 0ut
I dun likE
SAE IT sincereli...
and not wheneva u feel like...
NO~~~
Come and be me...
and u will unD hw i feEL...
i feel sooo hurT
my heart... sink....
WAD is positive
wAD is Negative,
i no longer noe hw to differentiate it...
tis world is full of CRAP
this world... is changing...
changing ppl ard us
u no longer noe... how to unD a person totalli...
u feel distance awaY fr theM
Who r they??? i duno...
they changed...
its so scarY...
ppl r getting better n better
yet ppl wil become stagnent
and left behinD totally
throw u to the COLD palaCE...
U wun be the most beautiful one...
there wil be someone wh0 is better than Ya
and ya...
others wil start to fall for the beautiful one...
and left u all alone in the raiN...
cryin'
left U all alone
does they noe... its so bad to be like this?
do they?
wHy...
is jus like...
if u dun trueli luv some one...
deN WHY DO U all misleaD them!!!
and left them hanging up there...
duno to turn left or rite...
DO u noe............ its being evil to do such things?
DUN GIV STUP EXCUSES jus to get rid.........of it.
DUN plz...
=[
being left behind
yet no one cld eva understand hw it feel
unless they trY it..
no...
u all wun unD...
wun noe hw pain it is....
wun noe.. the feeling being thrown aside...
wUn noe hw it feel when the other told ya everything is nt possiblE
wun noe hw does it feel when u sit there alone and hope no one notice ya
wuN eva noe hw hurt it is... wheN u noe theres no more hopE...
i haTe u...
Do you love me more than i do?
.Sunday, June 18, 2006 ' 4:51 PM Y
yAp
being so fuck Up nowadays
wads wrong with e surronding?
wad is wronG?
why is everyone getting hurT
yeT u cant heal Them with ya hands..
why is there so many question mark on our head
whY ppl tend to mk things confusinG...
g0 one big round yet din tel ya e exact things
why e paiN kip coming back and Back
that u lose ya ctrl sometimes
Does ppl ne0 tt they hv hurt someone???
OR They jus simply choose to leaVe it...
and fuck cAre...
Don't care abt ppl feelings?
How wld they feel if they noe u hv hurt theM???
Have u guys tot of it?
have u guys hurt ppl b4?
i gueSS everyone did...
including myselF...
Can u imagine...
things can be...
Because of YOU and
it turn out to be another WAy...
a complicated case....
DID U eva realise it???
because of yoU,
u hurt e ppl aRd U...
hv u evA open ya eyes big enuff and SEE
who u R hurting and why r u hurting them this wAY?
[the "u" nv specified on any1, don paniC]
Have U anot... ?
have u eva feel so guilty...
tt u tok someone bad behind ppl?
ya who dun gossip...?
i admit i DO =]
HUMAN***
But when u sae ppl...
Wad abt U urself?
u R perfecT?
think!!!!!
b4 u sAE...
as in...
u can sae...
"oh i tink u look ugly..."
U urself v GD looking?
0r... "this girl or guy V 38"
U urself are not???
fuck it....
think....
yayaaya...
READers...
my word may be harsH ya???
my blog...is being indirectly????
is harsh...
indirectly?
no... i dare to sae...
n0 offend..
is whether hw u waN to read my bloG =]
like i sae...
dun like?
fuck oFF =]
u r welcome... to view my bloG.
wadevA...
back to the topic...
h0w long can happiness last?
depends...
depend on hw yoU wan it to b3
nothing invites happiness...
wh0 is perfect?
tel me who?
none...
none of us is perfecT.
who treat luve realli seriousli?
wh0....
treat it seriousli at first
then ended up heck care?
human beings...
the FAct is realli cruel
tt u jus gotta faCe it...
everyone gt their choice to judge on certain things.
s0me like to go one biG rd...
den ended up giv freaking excuses
novelty acts???
be it a guy or girl =] saME
s0me just get sick of u...
some totalli wana be al0ne[feel much comfortabl3]
ya...
but the sweetest thing is...
memories...
memories kip inside...
deep inside ya heaRt... =]
smile..
it isnt the enD of the world
its a new beginning
provided we noe hw to let it go...
ya sorrow may be gone, but u stil feel unhappy...
but tis is alrdy e staGe tt u try to step out
and u did...
i did it...
its not easy... yet difficult...
overcome it...
f0r the hurting one another...
Ermx...
Do u feel bad when u realli hurt someone?
u noe it... but u leave it as it is...
u diN wan to clarifY it
yet let the other party to continue gettin hurt
without showing....
d0 u tink it is e rite waY?
U avoid when the question started to come to U...
afterall it stil meant nth ya...
unclear statement....
then there wil always be no aNS
if u avoid...
the problen can nv be solvE
Do you love me more than i do?
.Friday, June 16, 2006 ' 6:30 PM Y
why is there always changes everywhere?
wheN i tot everything had jus settle dw?
Is it sth gets bigger then things wil not always goes so well anymore?
wHY...
ask yaself... is it bcoz of u urself?
or others ard U?
Ask yourself... did u eva changed?'
in wAD waY?
FRiends, dAnce, Family, SCH, relationshiP... etc?
sometimes u will jus go to a certain extenD tt u wuN care at alL.
ya.. i became lidaT n0w...
in certain thingS.
Wad causes it?
alot...
whY is there always hv some ppl will think how g00d theY R?
wheN... they are realli suxs to the core?
i tk dance as an example... since i'm a dancER
DAnce...
iN this... Dance thingy....
is so competitiv3...
is getting more n more competitive
when every single one of us are improving tgt at e same time...
g00d thing is whereas everyone improve tgt...
some wil jus think tt... HEY i wan to win u no matter waD!
as a dancer...
u noe this type of thinking wun get u any further...
and st0p thinking tt HW DAMN GD u r...
U r not...
even a pro dancer... wun dare to sae tt...
unless... they r too proud of themselves...
TO me la...
a gd dancer cAn b proud in a rite waY...
but nt those NOSE HIGh HIGh one
then look dw on ppl...
no matter hw gd u R...
once ya nosE went up high...
no one wil evA wan to Respect ya anymore...
tts a v saD thing... don u tink so???
so wad if u r good?
no one bothers....
to those jus started dance...
or improve abit onli...
worse...
if
nose go higH...
tts it...
can go eat shit liao...
stating the fact tt i tink... is like tis la
duN eva think tt...
today i learn this cheoro or i can do tis
im the dopest in e whole wide world...
u r jus learning...
there is so much to learn n g0....
dun eva think tt... today i get a champion for mini comp
im a pro dancer....
NAH..
how gd u can be?
ask urself...
u can be the best in ya club or in ya own dance grp...
but wat if u go outside....
there's so many better dancer out there.
im not saying im good
i nv tot im good.
yet i noe i SUX in dance
be patient... if u realli wan to b A gd dancer.
do it the rite way...
and not going out... to show off hw good u r at tt moment...
to let ppl or other dancer hv the wrong tinking...
like... wa... this grp of ppl... onli lidat ar... stil so hao lian
fuck la...
tis is throwing ya face away to the draiN
coz i 've seen so much so far...
tis is hw i feel.
nose high realli can GO EAT SHIT...
ya... RESPECT each other
if u dun respect ppl...
how u expect them to respect u
be it a junior or senior...
respect each other....
who eva is wrong...
get the rite way to handle it well =]
well... im not trying to specified on sth
if u guys tot i am...
buTTTTTTT
be it a junior or senior
let mi tel u all this...
now im saying junior n senior ar
[talk nicely if other party is in e wrong
as in... imagine u r e senior...
ur junior shouted at u...
do u feel respect this word in ya facE??
nope =]
trY it...
SOMEDAY
junior wil become senioR too...
get tis feeling... and u wil feel it]
some advice
no offends
like i sae...
is my blog
is my freedom to sae anything...
unhappy abt it...
come tok to me
i'll tok to u if i gt the time =]
think of the effort everyone put in...
hw much effort we put in e pasT...
ya...
last time in NPCC... i noe junior is dying for the senior to leave
so they can tk over e squad.
im not saying im facing tis prob now
but jus saying things mite jus happen.
jus be prepared and handle it well
everyhing wil be fine.................
Dun pull dw everything when al of us brinG it up
its not easy...
if u heard e comment outside
u wil feel how painful it is...
ya...
everyone...
think ok...
its time to grow up
and stop being a kid.
everything u jus gt to look into it.
like i SAE... i nv SPecified in anythinG.
jus a feeling n advice...
u wil noe it... when one day u feel u r sux
explode outside...and u will truly feel it
i once tot im good
yet i sucks...
dun tink u do alot of perf or show... means gd la...
impossible...
u gt to wk hard
dance e rite attitude =]
and u wil mk it somedaY
if u tink im saying it wrong...
den fuck it...
i don care anyway...
peaCe***
Do you love me more than i do?
.Wednesday, June 14, 2006 ' 6:11 PM Y
thru so much like levis comp... nv get in to final join international comp... Din realli do well for audi but got thru, semis did badlY, got last 4... and nid to freestyle to prove why mus they giv u a chance to... get into final? freestlye totalli screW up like hell ya... ppl tink we r lousy ya we din prepare well enuff we r too slack... den i mus sae we r luckY enuff to get in to final after so much arguemenT so we train hard n sAE: lets not let anyone Dw... wk for it... and do a nice one aim for top 3 at least... so we wun go up stage aimlessli yaP... we mk it =] we do changes to the dance ppl was impressed coz i tink others wil sae... aiya ROUGH cut... last 4 tt time... wun do any better de la.. i supposed some of theM wil tink like tis... =] its oki, its normal... when the MC announce ROUGH CUT, no body move... til ppl sae : GO UP! u guys r top 2... no one in my grp believes... they jus... aR??? sitting dw.. n slowli move.. den finalli noe we realli top 2... die... no prepare for the battle!!! coz.. we nv expect to get top 2 n got no time to prepare for battle too... yap battle was unprepare but we gt more united... we dun wan to screw up like semis so we did our best.. do wadeva we had done b4.... and... go!!!! nice exp... i learn more.... i learn alot... and im proud of Rough Cut... though we nv prepare.. but we giv our best... ya... too touched til teartinG away NRA can feel each other... after a wk... NRA CAMP... im proud to mk a video of nra.... for the past 3 yrs... i feel... we all grown up... ya of coz... erm thru the camP i learn damn lotsa things too alot alot tt i din expected too... and i oso realised hw much i luv nra hw much i wanted to dance n my passion towards it... i found out tt... im so much closer to some of them which we r nt e last time ya...everythings tk time... it tks alot of time to heal if u get hurts... my wound are getting smaller ya...i jus hate him i duno why i cant ctrl... i feel tt all tis is jus like a dreaM nv tot this HATE word wil come to me... to HIM im sRy.... im so sry... i put too much in him so i gt to pull out now... i promise i try... i wil try my v best... jus becoz i wun be a burden to u anymore so u no nid to stress abt anything anymore go on with ya lif3 i'm v happY now with nra peeps i luv them as much as i expected. im going to let it go... let this pass... it wil jus be a memory... oh no.... a dream to me no more repeated precess i learn so much on this too i've grown up ... ya i did... i noe hw to ctrl better im going to carrY on to be stronG as strong as b4... no matter wad happens life goes on... duN hide in e dark hole coz u wun be able to see anything in it... step out.... let the lights guide u along... its nt the end tell urself... nth is worse than the things u feel is the worsT... nth... time is not everything but it is sth.... ya... finalli i can settle dw... too bz over the pass few wk... ya... i stil feel for him but its going to be a history.... a history tt wil nv br it out againx
Do you love me more than i do?
