.Thursday, April 23, 2009 ' 3:22 AM Y
hey ppl,Suddenly i got this Feel to watch danzation video again.I...miss danzation the moment i played it.the feeling in danzation is all there...i felt it and i rmb it.I love the danzation me.Coz im super independent.Just me and me and me...and i wont care what wil upset me most beside worrying my head being knocked tt time -.-The ppl i trained with... and get to know em even better.the tears the smses...everything is still in me...once in a lifetime, tt feeling wil no longer be the same anymore.If u ask me i felt for 2006 or 2008 which one more feel?For me 2008, why? bcoz i more Zi dong this time.06' i wld say yea its great but tt pt of time i DANCE blindly andwhen i go for rehearsal i jus stick to the ppl i noe well,SOmetimes i quite solo one, zi bi... HAAHAHa yea...So i rather stick to myself den ACT frenly to all.... coz i cldn't ler.Im shy shy lil girl.Hanah. i kb la...I most kb kia liao.KNNanyway...I miss danzation so much really.its been.... almost half a yr...time flies.. so fast.and sad to say, i bloody hell dance for 5 yrs alrdy.KNN my standard like duno waD sai still...Im realli a stup person, really.I cant find myself gd pts on me...Do u hv any on me?I tink ZEROOOOOOOOOOOOim just a stupid girl.lolxdont be shocked, coz i realli feel im stup and dumb...and mayb near useless.?lollife goes on man...bobianIF can, i really dun wan to be a human nx life.its fukin irritating to be a human,coz u mus go thru ups and dw.. again and againnv ending...PPL say LOVE is the most wonderful thing.......No... love is the most scary and painful thing i feel.yeayea....again wan say i tink too much rite. lolim not la.. tmd.its really amazing and scary bcozat the same time u love tt person so much,u cld do anything or even forgive him/her no matter what.Give in again and again without noeing u r tking for granted at times.Im not saying i wei da.I am not.Instead..... im quite a loser.and after i see the FB vid - indian wife saysThe imperfect is the perfectionist...I smiled.......... and i get it.when u tot is imperfect and u hate it so much and wants it to disappeared...but yet when its gone, u missed it...u rather hv tt imperfectionist den u mite nv hear or see it again...I stop forcing at that pt of time.I ask myself to let it go dont force it when another is so unwilling.it gets hurt when the other just did it for the sake of doing it cozim forcing it.sigh. well..tk it slowly ba.Start all over again.....I noe its tough......my heart ached......stil aching though i look fine coz everything seems fine.ya i hope its fine...i dont even dare.... to say a word anymore.just smile and everything wil be in peace. =]Labels: insecured
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