.Monday, October 13, 2008 ' 1:58 AM Y
I heard he don't careI heard he isn't going to do anythingnothing...1yr5mths1wksThis is what i getshit...He leave me hanging here,He actually got the heart to leave me aside.
[are we still tgt? im nt sure, undefine]Thats his characterSo do i accept it?Or i don't?If he happens to read my entry,he must be thinking ...Why write out and let ppl see to think you r only the one pitiful?but do u tink u are the one thats always right?Sighno matter hw much i said/how much i do,Im always in deep shit and nid to call him like millions timesSms like mad, run after him ask him not to run away pls.I rmb how much he love me like crazy at firsTI rmb he hug me tightly and dont want let go of meI rmb he cry when we quarrelI rmb he hold my hand tightly and smileI rmb i smsed him saying i miss him and he wanted to see me immediately.I rmb the first kiss he gave meI rmb hw much i meant to himI rmb the fun we are tgtI remember...I rmb he's panic when i first angry with himI rmb the places we say we must go tgtI rmb he gave me a flower to support me when im competingHis frenz once ask him: "what is the thing you most afraid of?He said "nothing, i only scare liling leave me"=/I rmb i was so cold in office and forgt to bring jacket along with me,he came to my office the nx hour jus to pass me the jacket.He bought lunch for meHe wait for me even i work till 1amHe cab home most of the time just to spend time with meHe secretly wait for me at the side till i finish my work.But now,Things are differentThing ain't the same anymoreThings ChangeThings dont always work the same anymoreHe just become a heck care personwhich i hope this will be the last thing to happen.he heck care methinking he is always right.No matter what he is rightand no one cld ever be as right as himIncluding me.I become helpless day by dayI cld only put on a smile to him and THATS ALLI cant act princess throw temperI cant put on a sad faceI cant Cry infront of himI cant keep repeating things which he will thinks its irritaingI cant say things he dont likeI cant force him to do sth he don't likeI cant...nothing...He cld throw temper at meHe can do anything he likehe can cry infront of mehe can tell me his sorrow he can say things i dun likehe can force me to do things i hatehe can.....anythingThis pain i feel won't go away.Im tired of running after youWhy not u run after me?NAh... you die oso wun...U will only scold meSay i kaobeiSay i FuckSay i IrritatingSay i RidiculourSay i troublesomeSay i StupidSay i'm a idiotthis are the things that hurts me so muchthis are the things u wont change for meU gt ur dream to pursuebut u forgt the ppl ard youthe one u lovesthe one that loves uthe one ard you supporting u...U forgt all abt itU dont give a damn.U r self indulgence..U......U....hw can i ever ever forget the pain u gave ...U really bear to see me like thisOnce again leave me to deathleave me aloneand all i heard is RaindropsI love you
Do you love me more than i do?