Nothing Invites HappinesS

moveD

2009-11-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

I've moved to

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/luveriko85

NEW one!

hammy -mama

2009-07-27T18:41:00.002+08:00

Its a funny thing that,
MY mama doesnt like to keep pets at all,
COz it stink, troublesome and so on...

BUt when i get Qiu n Niu back..
slowly she ok

Now i got tinky winki Lucky and Qiu...
(though i ask lex to tk winki with him)
My mama likes them. i mean Love em like hell.

We always gt tis topic... HAmster..
u NOe tinky... this morning... blablabla..
my mama start toking abt it...
SO cute rite...

my mama likes tinky the most.
everyday go her cage... den she wil call.. TINKY TINKY~~~ HELO!!!

lol

parents like tt...

say dun like end up love like hell. lol

MY dad abit opp...
Startin like like mad... carry it out n play.... oftEN..

NOw don giv a damn.. lol.....
say smelly la...
noisy...

nw he totalli dun care my hammys -.-

mayb thats GUYS~~~~~~~~~

lol

oki... i going to Farid class now~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ooo
GUYsm thurs my class, plz come ok!
I promise.... no hand swing (BLuff one)

LOL

eriko imai

2009-07-15T04:20:00.002+08:00

MY favourite and shall always be my Idol, Eriko imai =]

Rmb i said Speed is back? Yea indeed they r back .

Recently ard april Eriko gt her album out ,
I realised i nv forget her at all,
Everytime i happened to search her in utube, MY love for her as a idol is stil there.
Very Strong. u CAN say i STUP...
But no.. i really admired her, her everything .

Last time SPeed disband nt long,
She gt pregnant,
EH i Not sure she gt married with tt guy anot...
COz i only see her n her son in News, but nt her hubby...

So im nt sure abt tt part.

Eriko imai, 26 this yr.

I TEll u
SHe is a GOD damn GOOD BEST MOTHER.

She is the most talented in speed i wld said.
HER SINGing... i tink is the best out of the 4.
YES i love the rest of speed like mad too,
Each gt their own talent.
BUT i love eriko the most...

Eriko's child got some problem.
Cant hear... nid to wear tt small pc of thing beside the Ear.
She nv give up and raise up her child by all means...
She went to sch with him jus like any other mothers...
Attend sch event with her child, play with the childrens...

Play guitar and sing song to her child, and the child sit and listen,
but halfway thru the child disturb her, BUT she look into his eyes and cont to SIng...
Jus for his child... =]
SHE Even leaRNt all the sign languages....
HW the hand sign shld be...

SHe work hard just for his child...
As time goes by, The child seems to be v healthy and strong =]
VERY kawaii too =]
she is very patience towards him too.....

I see hw SPeed reunion, cook tgt , sit dw and eat dinner...
chitChat...

Immediately.. i teAred...
U can SAY i SIAO... Crazy wuliao...

BUt i really really love em.

AND in my life i just love speed.
NO other idolsssssss....
If i say i like.. is jus purely like lo... awhile only.
Or respect abit ,thats all.

DEEP Dw, IS just speed and Esp Eriko =]

GOd bless his child =]

(IF SHE really no husband... i hope tt man REgrET and better be strike by lightning since he
So irresponsible) IF la... =]

LOVE U ERIKO! PLZ JIA U!!!!!!!!!!
UR SINGING SUPER GD!
IM GOING TO SUCH ur ALBUM IN SPORE!!!!! HMV

AND SPORE U BETTER SELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL SPEED ALbum!!!
nb... i cant find .... I WIL KILL HMV OR CD STOREs.! lol

IM always ur FAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(for ur info... is coz of speed, i started to love and go into dancing. BELIEVE IT OR NOT!)

thnkful

2009-07-14T04:22:00.002+08:00

Its a gd feeling when u can Dance with the ppl u wanted to.
I dont knoe hw exactly the feeling is..
But i felt happy =]
Deep dw, im grateful...
though i always tot im a fuking suay stup Girl...
But the only lucky and happiness thing is not love... not money not this n that
but can dance with u guys... and i get to Dance..

NV had i tot that im able to dance.
Its ok that im nt a gd dancer nw, i wil try my best to mk it Gd... =]
Im thnkful to the ppl ard me... =]
Im gLAD u guys are my GD GD FRENZ!!!

Actually all my frenz are v weird and retard ,as time goes by..
I became weird n retard and song too...
REALLy..
and more GuailAN.lol

AS you all shld noe...
VON = REtard, ERxin, Weird, DAring, not v chio, HAir special...
BEC = MAN, Sometimes abit SIaO, HElmet on her head always, narrow shoulder, bouncy GIrl..
YEN = SOng, dressing quite disaster, look like YANG Guo, Lo soh, Tok so much i dun uNd @ all..
JOyce = MAN of the Man,Like touching our boobs, Act sexy always, Menses super irregular, Accent Queen, lag to the maX..

WQ= Stupid, Eyes too big, Fierce looking, Getting retard like her BF...
PEiyi = Jazz funk Princess, Act chio, Always saY V HOT~~~, Complain queen, Humji kia...
TER = MOST RETARD, Sharp to the max, Worse of the worse fren... (mk it short)lol
GLEN= super GL, Analyse like... foreVa, coldy JOKEs... NEAt BOi too...

WALAU ALOT LA... tmd
Xian, min, jj ,cmt, fredy , Su...............

majority of us, ARE bitchy...!!! LOL!
Thats why we gt tgt. lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oooo love love love...
JIA U FOR SUNTEC BITCHESSSSSS

my wish lisT

2009-06-18T15:23:00.003+08:00

/wishing list/

I wan..a..

!st - Last:

BED (abit jian)

Ipod ( Jian of the Jian)

Wallet

Hi 5 set??? @ my room (erm ya jiaN)

Full length Mirror

Money more than $500 (quite jian)

Nice casual Dress (last choice)

I no nid...

Dolls,
Watch,
Shoe.

bday

2009-06-12T02:41:00.002+08:00

MY bday wishes...

I dont want to so FAST bday. knn...

Birthday equal Aging...
SIANZ

LOL
i like bday but den again i see the candles and realised im older.
Then abit sianz.
lol

What i want this year? srsly... I dont knoe!

Can my bf dance for me? LOL
Which is fuking nt possible as u all noe... LOL

YA its v sweet everytime ppl bday there wil be ppl dancing for em.
Of coz sometimes realli see til sianz liao, coz everyone is doin the SAME thing.

But stil Sweet as eVa. u dun wish someone to dance for u?
ERM I wIsh ler! LLOLX

luckily my bday dun fall on dance classes.
coz WAD? sure tio SOLo...
the most humji thing in dance... is.. to solo!
den everyone started shouting SWALLOW SWALLOW SWALLOW~!

NRa trend... LOlx

Well =]
why nt u all dance SPeed routine let me sEE? LOL!
ok super random. but wil be damn Funni.
ok im day dreaming.

mayb i jus like yen
lock myself in the cardboard and sing bday song to myself.
Sounds kool in a way and boring... and eerie? lolx

Wad i wan for bdae pressie?
ERm i always after bday den realised i nid this n tt... TMD sianz lolx

OK

I want... a BED? LOLX!!!!!!!
coz i gt no bed.
a princess bed. lolx

ok i noe las yr cardboard this yr bed like abit TOO Much~~~~~~~~~~~~ LOLx

I want... BAg, nice dope shit one. .
I want clothes for dance or Go out one also Can.

I want................. 1million $.............

I want go japan... u sponsor me?

Plz don buy watch for me, i gt a few..... and shoes......

Im nt those wan 10 shoes kind. i realli wil duno to wear which one.

I want...Surprises............ LOL! ok tok cok.
I want........................
haiz duno la. suddenli i cant tot of it.

last few choices... ?
dope nice Belt... ?
pants...
dresses...
jeans...?

LOL! ok............... dono...................................................................................
i duno why im nt enthu for my bdae at all.
last time i enthu one. i tel the whole world... LOL!
nw i stil tel. but nt so many......... but nw i blog...
Ppl who read NOES! then give mi pressie ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TOO BAD U SAW! even if only 1 person 's reading! I DUN CARE!

TMd... LOL

erm................... im nt enthu,
mayb too many sad things happened ard me.

HAIZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
which yr is ur best bdae?

mine. is... the 20th? the one
that they lied to me i cant join SUntec.
using ann to bluff me,
I cried fr afternun to nite...
den bloody hell ann called and sAY HAPPY BIRTHDAy.... -.-
thnks ar...

that was the best surprise...
and one is 22nd, kana rob by big jon.......
End up i realli lost my wallet...
THNKS ar...

23rd is... lex br mi to wild wild wet, den im stuck in tt tunnel... damn throw face
but FUN being with him den at nite br mi to fish n CO, all my fren were there
to surprise me.. not bad either.

21st... i ask em go underwater world with me...
den eat steamboat...
celeb with fredy... we 1 day different only.
den force us to drink and Wear a ultimate ugly maroon Dress at the
shop... adn mk us duno do wad.........
but fredy more ugly..

den i tink 19th was...
von contact with my sec sch fren.
den they hid in my room...
My fren some hide in the store rm.
i was tinking FUk.. Why store rm gt lights!! dim lights..
Cao.... i was tinking shit is GHOST.. cb liao!

LOL
den i open!!!!!!!!! lol!
3 guys hide inside and stunn.. why i open tt door first..
den i open the room

my fren and stup von came out fr mattress..
Den play happy bday song!
damn SOng i tel u...
den i smile..................... omos tear...
actualli i shld open my rm first den they come out fr store rm with the cake

BUT guys are stup...
they light the candle first.
LOL but i realli tot gt ghost, den im tinking jus chiong liao LA
knn...LOL!

so far i rmb ............ all these... way b4 tt i cant realli rmb...
CAN U? lol =]

love u guys

pain in me

2009-06-07T05:00:00.002+08:00

everynite im closer to my dream
hope that day come soon.

Thats what he say.

He doesnt care whether i suffered anot,
he jus wan to be sth someday
to be well known, get the respect...

He said i complained.
I didnt.
All i wan is jus to tel him hw i feel.

HE sae i can leave wheneva i want.
he dun have the time to give me.

Either i just Stay or Leave, simple as that.
FInd a better guy that can fulli concentrate on me and nt bboy or wadeva so.

He will go full out on me, the day he mk it.
He will jus concentrate on me jus like his dope bboy frenz.

I ask him, deep dw do u love me?
YA he love..
I ask him again,

All i wan to noe is,
Do u wan me to be in ur future,
DO u wan to be the one that support me in future?

He said yes to me.

the word YEs....
mk me tear like mad.

still tearing....

He also said...
I kip complaining, then mk myself sounds wei DA~
Coz i told him i suffered alone.

can anyone tell me... did i trying to act weida?
For waD?

=[

i told him i mite leave someday
He is totalli fine with it if i cant wait.
This is the first time... i encounter such a heart pain love'

he realli killed me
deep dw.

I realli noe he dun care abt me till the day he is dope.
He don care... or mite be angry if he see wad i post.
and i doubt he bother to chk my blog at all.

Sigh.
wad a day.

loves

2009-06-05T03:48:00.002+08:00

Oh i tink im going crazy again.
Maybe my menses coming soon
so Watch out~!
dont provoke me yEa.

today i wanted to ask,

How is the feeling when u first met ur loves one?
Heart beat real fast?
face turn Red immed?
Wanted to hold him or her for life and nv let go?
Or You tot, U found him/her?

I was unsure at first when i mit lex,
Mayb the age gap.
But who knows, we r tgt for 2 yrs~
Do i hv the heart beat real fast when he first hold my hand?
When he grab my hand to cross the road?
Hold me so tight and nv want to let it go...

Yes my heart beat was so fast,
And my face turn red..
I was so nervous.

I felt happiness at tt moment.
was it the right choice? i dont know,
I jus wan to kip on be like this as long as we r so happy.

But do u believe in happy ending?
No i dont....
Where is the happy ending?
It goes on and off...

when wil it be an happy ending between us?
Im not sure.

Do you wish that i will be the one in ur life?
Do u want it?
Im living in fear...
Living to see hw a hubby and wife cld stay tgt for the rest of their life.
My parent mite nt be a gd eg.
Coz my dad quite ignored my mama.
Nth unhappiness in my family.
jus mayb too bored of each other?
isnt married is e most hAppiness thing in the world?
Why dont each other tk gd care of each other and nt tk each other for granted?

Do u ever give it a try and noe it mite work somedaY?
Yes i believe it wil be better . i believed it wil work smoothly somday.

But when is the day?
when.......

Dont i deserve sth better alil fr u? =[

////////////////he always say i tink too much///////////////

I tink is i endure too long tts y i tink too much.
im nt possesive nor gt mental prob.
Dont be stupid guys... im a normal HUMAN, knn,lol.

sometimes its hw u let go or hw u treasure things ard.
Once u let go, or miss it, u mite nv get it back again...

-----------------------------------------------------
And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold ya till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
Subsides
======================================

dont kb

2009-06-01T00:54:00.002+08:00

shake heads and feel old.......

SOME people just tink that they r really gd........ in dance.................?

hw gd can u be?

best in spore? best in the whole world...? (NAH Im nt even mentioning abt anyone. nO wRy)

Hw much did u went thru? u went thru all the comfort comfort trgs?

which brought u where u r todaY? =]

Sometimes.. its nt abt u can catch steps fAST or dance well or not.
Its abt ur heart, Ur mindset, your soul...... and the right ATTITUDE =]

IF u dun hv the abv.....
Den DON COME KB KBKB

kip kb doesnt help much

=]

Im Guailan and always XIalan =]

peace. V

enjoy the moment

2009-05-23T03:27:00.000+08:00

smile people,

U all can do it =]

enjoy the moment b4 its gonE again~ =]

insecured

2009-04-23T03:22:00.002+08:00

hey ppl,

Suddenly i got this Feel to watch danzation video again.

I...miss danzation the moment i played it.
the feeling in danzation is all there...
i felt it and i rmb it.

I love the danzation me.
Coz im super independent.
Just me and me and me...
and i wont care what wil upset me most beside worrying my head being knocked tt time -.-

The ppl i trained with... and get to know em even better.
the tears the smses...
everything is still in me...
once in a lifetime, tt feeling wil no longer be the same anymore.

If u ask me i felt for 2006 or 2008 which one more feel?
For me 2008, why? bcoz i more Zi dong this time.
06' i wld say yea its great but tt pt of time i DANCE blindly and
when i go for rehearsal i jus stick to the ppl i noe well,
SOmetimes i quite solo one, zi bi... HAAHAHa yea...
So i rather stick to myself den ACT frenly to all.... coz i cldn't ler.

Im shy shy lil girl.

Hanah. i kb la...
I most kb kia liao.
KNN

anyway...

I miss danzation so much really.
its been.... almost half a yr...
time flies.. so fast.
and sad to say, i bloody hell dance for 5 yrs alrdy.
KNN my standard like duno waD sai still...
Im realli a stup person, really.

I cant find myself gd pts on me...
Do u hv any on me?
I tink ZEROOOOOOOOOOOO

im just a stupid girl.
lolx

dont be shocked, coz i realli feel im stup and dumb...
and mayb near useless.?lol

life goes on man...
bobian

IF can, i really dun wan to be a human nx life.
its fukin irritating to be a human,
coz u mus go thru ups and dw.. again and again
nv ending...

PPL say LOVE is the most wonderful thing.......
No... love is the most scary and painful thing i feel.
yeayea....
again wan say i tink too much rite. lol
im not la.. tmd.

its really amazing and scary bcoz
at the same time u love tt person so much,
u cld do anything or even forgive him/her no matter what.
Give in again and again without noeing u r tking for granted at times.

Im not saying i wei da.
I am not.
Instead..... im quite a loser.

and after i see the FB vid - indian wife says
The imperfect is the perfectionist...

I smiled.......... and i get it.
when u tot is imperfect and u hate it so much and wants it to disappeared...
but yet when its gone, u missed it...
u rather hv tt imperfectionist den u mite nv hear or see it again...

I stop forcing at that pt of time.
I ask myself to let it go dont force it when another is so unwilling.

it gets hurt when the other just did it for the sake of doing it coz
im forcing it.

sigh. well..
tk it slowly ba.
Start all over again.....
I noe its tough......
my heart ached......

stil aching though i look fine coz everything seems fine.
ya i hope its fine...

i dont even dare.... to say a word anymore.
just smile and everything wil be in peace. =]

our limit

2009-04-20T00:31:00.003+08:00

mine is a failer.

whatever i tot of it, i just felt like a loser.

Anyone tried tis b4?

u try so many ways to mk it better
yet u r the only one trying...

and that person says u tink too much.
who created it?
me or u?

why mus it be everything is me if i started it first.
Regardless to anything i wil be the one to blame.

some told me, u choosed it so u must accept it.

YES i accept it, but things going up and dw.

some tot im alil possessive. am i?
I dont tink so.

All i asked for is jus the care and concern with some love in it.
Am i asking for much?

both of us actually push ourselves to the limit....
realli max.

when the one u love so much,quarrel til big time.
suddenly u realised u dun und em well at all or even u duno em at all.
its so scary to a pt... i duno wad is love ard me.

sigh.
all i ask for is just the love.

burden

2009-04-16T15:51:00.002+08:00

He only knows hw to say i make things big.

thats all he knows.

in his life his sushi his bboy is the most impt.

im nth to him.

i want to love him but i cant.

the way he treats me...
I felt like dying

mayb i shldnt b even living rite here.

i shld go.

he ignored.. when problem came along.
he jus tink i ridiculous and angry for nth.

he dun see the picture.

only his own world...

he tinks he's always rite.

no he is nt.

he forgt hw he loves me the way he used to.
he put bboy in the 1st place yet im at the 2nd place.

i give up.

i dont feel like living anymore.

im jus a burden to him

its over-comp

2009-04-15T02:21:00.003+08:00

FINALLY SBDC AND GROOVE's OVER!

Neva in my life i join 3 comps in one shot!

i Though i CLD HANDLE..
yes i did

buT is waY too tiring.

NX time i jus wan join one comp and concentrate jus one...
ALL TGT abit cRazy
but at the same time,
I Learnt alot fr these 3 comps.

I learnt fr NRa ppl, my own red alert, outside danCers.
I get to noe more dancers too.
=]

Thnks RED alErT
im sry if my temper like sai.
But glen one is stil the most GL
HE IS THE SILENT KILLEr.
LOL

Im the Openly GL KIa
JJ is the ACt kind kia (nw she pissed off easily after tgt wit us)
BEC is the wan angry dont angry KIA
YEW is always the GO BY bk OVerly stressed kiA

LOL tt made us RED ALERT!

although knn we nv wIN ANYTHIng~
NEVER MIND La...

we 4th in sbdc, hao guo mei you hor~.
LOL
the vouchers with mE~~~ u all dun wan,
I spend myself liao lo~ LOL OOOOOoooo
who ask u all ask me be leaDER!
leader collects everything yo!

HAHAHAAA OBiii

ANYway Congrats to JOYCE AND THE BOYS =]

Ter, rmb u said...
I CANt believe my frenz are goin to melb to compete in BATTLEGRD
and get 4th for spore! im so proud of u all really~ (sth like tt la)

Now my turn to u guys =]
IM SO PROUD THAT MY FRENZ ARE GOING TO LAS VEGAS!
TO COMPETE ON WORLD CHAMpionShip!

FUK U ALL!
LOL
I M SO TOUCHED yet a the same TIME i wan slap u all
CHICKEN Nuggets...
las vegas...
i only get to go melb.
u all tmd la. LOLX
act yi ge jealous.

BUT YEA, i realli happy for u guys.
FOR ur info~

when left joyce n the boys and FTC
I KIP SHOUTING JOYE N THE BOYS!!!!!~~~
den 2 guys look at me, like bu shuang...

then i look backto em anD SHOUTED JOYCE & THE BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@
den they DIAO ME
lol
lol
i tink they r some bboy... aud bboy.. or likes to break kind...

they realli diao me

BUT GUESS waD?
I FUKING DUN CARE
I KIP SHOUTIn JOYCEN THE BOYS, HIPHOP SHLD WIN!!!!!!
hahahahaaha
quite GL...

but yea u all deserved it!
Im nt saying FTC IS NT gd!
instead i tink they r the best crew tt day in SBDC.
and they r quite well known.

erm but stand on my side..
i of coz ..support my ppl... lol
sry.
lol

den when shiek announce the champion is...
JOYCE AND THE BOYS!!!!!!
i jump jump jump~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
AND YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kip shouting til i no voice
and i sTARted crying badly...
machiam i won...

lol
i realli cry sia
im so proud of u all!
really..

though ter... during preview...
u kissed me...
lol!
FUK U LA

AS IF I WAN KISS U!
Ur "Hu Xu" poke on my lips. u knn

hug oso duno wan turn where!
end up i kiss ur chin omos ur lips!!!!
YUCKS!
LOL
but actualli quite funny

SRY WQ, i dun mean to kiss u retard bf.
SRY Dear, I realli dun wan to kiss him
jus our aiming.... SUCKS!

FUK U!lol

ok too vulgar... lolx

anyway i kissed joyce after she gt champ.
i cant get myself to kiss her lips... so yucks~
so i kiss her cheek~~~~~~~~

ok sounds like i love to kiss ppl....
-.-
i love myself...

im nt those anyhw girls...
wear shorts... show butts and... show boobs de...~
i am not~ really...
i no boobs anyway..
lol
i mean I GOT BOOBS
BUT NOT BIG LA, kns...

ass frenz... lol
mus be luffing like shit nw.. .go die la.
ur boobs big mer?
COME SHOW ME~
lol

ok enuff of boobs...

by the way,
im stil busy for the time being.
I stil feels tired...
i over wk . lol

my body suddenli alil break dw.
everyday iwake up i stil feel tired like hell.

=]

ok jia u ppl.
I luve u all

and lastly.
FIESTY vol,
U GIRLS are realli great at semis,
im nt kidding or trying to mk u all happi
im proud of u girls.
tt nite after semis, i dreamt tt i tok to u all and tel u girls
saying, IM SO Proud of u girls and i cry. lol

den u all cry...
lol
sth like tt.. den i wake up le mus go comps again.heee
anyway u all kip dancing and improve ok =]

jia u.

rough addicts 2009 is back =]

cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love girl power =]

dance -BUSY LIfe

2009-04-02T01:04:00.003+08:00

IS really busy and stress to a point...
Im sick every thursday since a mth ago!

Got so zhun ma..

1st thurs b4 the 1st comp.
I TIO FLU.

2nd thurs I pulled my vein -thigh - cant lift up.
3rd thurs I MENSES- those ultimate PAIN LIKE FUK one.

4th thurs which is nw, i fuking back to square1 and TIO FLu again.

I SUSPECT all the FLU is always WQ PASS TO Meee
TMD Wang QIn, U WATCH OUT.

LOL

I got alot of things on hand til mid may.
then start to prepare for suntec comp i guess.
ROugh ADDIcTS~~~~ WE ARE GOING to DANCe tgt again.
Gd thing is we r back tgt.
Bad thing is, WE SURE wil argue along the wAy b4 comps.

Team mates tend to argue.
its super natural. kinda used to it.
SOmemorE im GL one, so... yea.
lol
lol
lol
jus say myself....

HAve been dancing like mad, like everyday.
Fr b4 danzation till now
nv stop beside CNY.

i hope i gt a day break,
Go out with Dear, shopping, gaming, watch movie, wear NICe clothes

JUS a day...
but there isnt any.
Im so tired.
nOT i dun love to dance
i really like being like tt
jus dance and teach, its interesting and i learn alot.
BUT yet... physically, im TIredd... really.

There are many things i must mk decision in life.
COZ my age tel me... i cant jus tink of myself.
Im running out of time.
not coz... im dying.
Is coz time is not on my side.
I must wk hard . say easy..do-difficult.
I Wan to do it, and i wan to mk it.
nth is impossible.
JUS like wad she told me, mayb some ppl tend to be slower to noe wad they exactly WAN.
YEs i am tt one who haven noe wad i wan bside dancing.

sounds like loser. but yet im nt going to let it be jus like tt.

JIAU ALL...

JIA U Feisty Volume,
RED ALERT,
SUSHI,
Kinderjoy,
Wasabi,
Joyce and the boys,
steffi's jr grp ( i suddenli forgt the name!) Sry

jia u...

and jia u my buddy,
jia u fredy, i hope u get well SOON!
jia u ah yi!

JUS JIA U~~~~~~~~~~

jj and bec and wq oso jia u for exam n stup projects.!

=] smile...
just kip smiling

IF U GT THE PASSION

2009-03-06T04:06:00.002+08:00

DO you ALL know, its always a blissful and happy thing
tO BE with NRA friends.

I enj0y my time with all of them, HANAH ok ALMOST all ok but not alL. lolx

sOmetimes i felt lucky to be hEre and get to Know all of em.

really im serious and im happy being here with u all =]

We got all kinds of ppl...

RETARD, Frenly, DECENt, ASses, basTards, biTches, lousY, wna be FamouS,
Ahbeng ah lians, stupiD, lamE, analyse, Go by book, timid, BRave, FUN, loving,
sWeet *me*, attitude , GuailAN, xia laN, dopE, unfrenly (LOL), fat, ugly, SLIM (Me),
PRetty(still me), yaNdAO, CUtie pie, FLAt face, Fat /rd FAce, broken enG.... people around..

JUS TMD ALOT...
lol

BUT AS u can see..
i belong to the slim, pretty, cute, frenly, abit retard and bitches sometimes... due to mixs with
the rest too much...

ERM GL and XL sometimes too but not frequent... LOL
my attitude IS super gd... and im a fun l0ving one.

So obviously... the rest dun belonged to me. =]
im a kind hearted soul. =]
and everyones ... erm, i wun say LOVes but like me!

thnk u guys... LOL (SELF PRAISE Again)

Oh add one more thing...
VERY OBVIOUS... is
those cate.... like...

Retard belong to ppl like von spears, TER, Wq , PEiyi ... that kind...
And flat face like Xiubei.... rd face like peiyi again....

lousy eng belongs to YEW and YEN all the Y's... (shake heads)

OH YA SOEM SHORTIES... like XIAN, NICO, JJ...
and one more cate.. STUp...
stupid shld be... WQ....and............ i tink onli her... lolX
those freaking RUDe ones goT... GIAM ,CC, GLEN, MaleX...

last CATE PERVERT

OBviousli is JUS JOYCEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =]

alrite.................... enjoy dancing while u are stil able to DANCE.

DANCE BECOZ YOU WAN IT,
DANCE BECOZ YOU LOVE IT.

DONT DANCE BLINDLY.
GET OUT OF UR COMFORT ZONE AND BREAK THRU.

IF U WAN IT, THEN GO FOR IT AND WK HARD IN A CORRECT ATTITUDE.
IF U WAN IT BUT U R AFRAID OF IT THEN U WASTED UR PASSION.

IF U GOT THE PASSION, use IT, IF NOT U''RE GONNA WASTE IT~

love DANCE
love U

crabs

2009-02-28T05:24:00.004+08:00

TODAY I... PITY the CRABsss

My relatives BRought my mama 3 aliVE Crabs.

Then my mama dont like aLIVE ones coZ must kilL it URselF!!!!
SHe abit sianX...

JUST nice i was in the KITCHEN!
then my mama going to COOK IT FOR DINNer...

WALau eh tMD
Starting i was saying eh jus kill lo, BOBIAN ma.
THEN U wan kip it ar? be our peT? lolx

THEN SHE pour the 3 cRABS OUT in the sink...
2 looks normal color, 1 ulti BLAck
THE ULTI black one my mama sae is HEI SHe HUI (gang) lolx

SHE TOOK A Knife out,
Out of curiousity i went to WAtch.
I REGRETTED WATCHING U NOEEEeeeeeee!

SHe POK THe 1st crab... BOMBBBB PIAKKkkk!!!!!!!!!!
Strg to the center..........
I start to FEEL OMf.....

The this crab standing bside it's frenz...
IT LOOK SCARE...
REALLY!!!
THEN the crab shift away.... praying it wil not GET KILLED.

wa...
i see liao SAD...

MY mama push the 2nd crab...
SAYING HEI SHE HUI...~~~~~~~~~~~
CHOPPPPp BOM?B PIAK BANG~~~
DIE Liao...
2nd gone!!!

haizzz
the 3rd one is the i srsli pity it de...
it REALLY SCARE,, coz it SAW It's 2nd fren kana KILLED BY MY MUM
RITE INFRONT OF HER OR hiM!

I ask my mama..
CAN U DUN KILL ???????????????
coz v kelian...
really kelian
u see the eyes............
asking US nt to kill..........
can dun kill...??????????

I SEE LIAO WAN CRY LIAO
lol
i DUNNO y
but mayb i can communicate with tt crab........

But she stil kill it...
flip it
IT SUPER STRUGGLE compare to the REST.

I SAY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
nx moment its a
PIAK BOMBARD woooffffff BANG PANK... PIa...

DIE LIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
si le...
the crab si le...........................................................

i felt super upset

but i nv eat the crab la.
my dad n mama eat
lol
i went to teach class.......
almost late coz i watch the crabs died................................

SRY crabs..
my mama actualli super scare to kill u al
but no choice... ????
sry... we human dun meant to eat u.
i wanted to let u off
but my mama... jus chopped u strg.. after ur 2 frenz chopped.

I FEEL bad for u n ur frenz..
but the hei she hui... i dun realli pity it.
mayB ONLI u
coz We eye contaCT...
and i can feel u super SCARE...
die for nth. jus to let us human filled our stomach......................

SRY
may u rest in peace... and become a human nx time
so wun kana killed so easily... =[

dont hate my mama
SHE dun mean to........
HAte the ones that caught u... to the human places.

OK enuff of th Crabs...

ANYWAY I LOVE BEAT FREAK N QUEST CREW.....
their passion is.... ultimate.............
go and watch abdc seasons 3 if u stil lag behind

they r too dope.......
and im impressed.
i wan to be like them!!!

As if i can..... lol

day dreaming

PETTY U

2009-02-24T19:07:00.001+08:00

DONT FUKING TREAT ME LIKE SHIT LIKE LAST TIME!

I SRSLY CANNOT STAND IT AND UR WEIRD REASONS.

CONTINUE TO BAQ TO SQUARE 1 AND THATS IT!

COZ I CANT TOLERATE AND GIVE IN ALL THE TIME LIKE TT.

IM FUKING TIRED OF IT!!!!!!!!!!

I MEAN IT AND I REALLY REALLY DONT WANA GET HURT FOR NTH AGAIN!

U HEAR ME??????

some says...

2009-02-23T03:49:00.004+08:00

SOMETIMES u all just love me and thinks im perfect indirectly. LOL

joyce say : GO and ton YOUR body and u will LOOK HOttER
(that means she meant i alrdy hoT b4 i ton!)

Bec says: U look just nice alrdy so no nid to give me ur fats anymore
(THat means my figure is JUS NICE!)

Some ppl like WQ, Giam. C.Cheng, Yew, Peiyi says: STOP ACTING CUTE LA U!
(but the thing is... I SRSLY nv ACT CUTE!- which means... I alrdy CUTe in a way!)

And some will say : DONT ACT CHIO LA (when i dressed up)
(That means i look chio with wHAT I WEAR!)

AIYO PEOPLE...
Why u all iindirectly...
I seriously shy till... OMG
Everytime i tot of it, i FEEL HAPPy yeet PAISEH Lo..~~~~ wave*

Wink*** wink* lolx!

Srsli if u all tink im so chio sweet cute body hot... whateva..
just write me a note/tag here la... to prevent both of us paiseh...

SO don wry ok, i will tk compliments one =]
but i promise i wun HAOLIAN AND NOSE WENT HIGH hiGh !

Coz all along im those shy and decent kinD
U dun hv to wry i will nosE HIGH OK =]

I LOVE U GUYS LA~~~ shy*****

before i end:

SOME PEOPLE are BoRn to sit by e=the RIVER,
Some is Strike by Lighting
Some are HonesT
Some Swim
Some knows Buttons
Some knows Shakespears...
Some are Mother

And

Some People...
...
...
... DANCE...

(DONT GIVE up On Dancing when YOu noE you alrdY cant LIVE without IT)

2009-02-20T17:08:00.001+08:00

I love tartar =)

CAB DRIVER IS SO FUK UP

2009-02-19T01:37:00.005+08:00

FUKING CAB DRIVERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

U WATCHED OUT!
(its going to be a vulgar once aGain)

YTD IS A SUAY day
im so screwed !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was supposed to replace jj at ACS I(international) for Dance class at 1.55pm.
I woke up my tummy ultimate pain...
But nvm coz jj v sick so i just went aheaD to teacH
She and WQ told me is holland V there opp cold storage... walk in =]

SO I purposely wake up eaRLY and eat breakfast so wont be late at all.
its all planned, i wil plan the timing always de. (but i always late while meeting u guys rite!)
BUT THIS ONE REALLY GT PLAN!!!!! trusT ME.
Its either i jus nice reach or earlier 10mins kind!

BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
KNN I FUKING ulti SUAYyyy (BAD LUCK)

i went out saw 157, i CHIONGGGGG To the bus STOP then i realised
SHITTTTTT I put my EZLINK ON THE SOFA!!!!!!!! which i stil told myself aiya i WIL RMB De!

BO BIAN, i walk bak home.
when im in the bus 157, i super wana lau SAI
AND ITS REALLI FUKING PAIN type... but bobian I MUS REN!
ENDURE U NOEEEE, endure SAI IS way worse den ENDURE URINE!
MY GOD...

I cant stop anywhere to go shit coz i wil late since i missed the first BUS Le!!!
THEN a sec sch guy shocked me in the bus...
HE... Hold the bar and use his 100% strength full out...
SQUAD DW STAND UP squad dw stand UP and swing his bk aRD
look v anGRY when the bus jam at a pt.
DEN SUDDENLI HE STOPPED
and stared at the front.
I TINK he is those gt problematic kid.
can tell... but he looks seems normal kind.
but i guess some gt problem one cant CTRL de.
den he gt dw the bus, he pause there v long. and drag his baG and walk... slowli

EH like wan go kill ppl type ,really.
SO i KANA SHOCKED
THEN MY SAI WENT BAQ, AISEH
GD
coz... realli cannot lau at tt time...

OK BACK TO THE SUAYiest part:

I reached the KAP opp bus stop to tk 77 but
it says 7mins.... i reach the bus stop is like 130pm!
7 mins? walau too long.
SO I HUMJI TOOK CABBBBBBBB
This Trans caB
u bettER WATCHED OUT, fuk u!

i go on cab asking the uncle;
UNCLE U NOE HW TO GO ACS I?
SOmewhere v near holland V de.

Uncle- Jus hop in with a smile =)
SMILE LAN LA cb...
ok i v angry... u cont and reAD den u WIL NOE WHY I so anGRY!
He say he tinks he noes and happily chat with me
ask me whao so young teach dance ar... blabla..

THEn say ACS I stand for?
i SAY anGlo chineSe sch-InternationaL~

Him: Oh...~ is the...... bouna vista there.
then las las nite kevinn told me B.V there gt bus to go dw strg too.
SO I TOT ITS E SAME WAY.
I SAY shld be? i duno , nv go there B4!

THen i dun hv a single cent with me
I peep his car...
den ask UNCLE CAN PAY by NETS NOT?
HE GL LIAO coz i no money
HE act sei say CANNOT
ME: NVM den when near holland there gt posb.
He say i wun go holland v, i going bouna vista there...
I WAS LIKE erm okk den drive me too somewhere ba.
AFTER i draw money... my time super tight and i stil wan lausai ...

so i ask uncle REACHING SOON?
HE SAY eh yaya...
HIM: ERM whats the sch again?
i repeat ACS I(INT)

Wad u sae? can write to me instead?

CBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB
i start to pissed...... like wtf after saying reaching u stil fuking cb dare to
tel me ... can u write so i noe..........
knnbccb.................... u go eat sai ok?

then he say oh is it this one? i see le... i was thinking hw wld i noe hw it looks like?
I aLRDY SAE I FIRST TIMEEEEEeeee iF i noe i fuking go myself.... or tel u the waY!
I Realli running out oF time liao!

then drive me le, drop me...
i exchange pass to go in.
den i call jj hw to go to the hall?

THEN SHE dun und where am i.
i SAE i at the clock there...
Its ACS I
..
..
..
ACS INDEPENDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good job... im at the wrong SCHO0l
cb uncle.......... u watchED OUT

the cab fare $8.20.
U knn, u heng i realised wrong sCH after u left.
CCB.
when i realised i at ACS Independent.
ITS 1.50pm...
let me remind u, i mus teach at 1.55pm!!!
WHOOOssshh
HOSEI...
i omos wan CRY.
like wil cause jj..... suayness.
fEEL BAD.
then heng a cab came along in the sch
i BEG HIM BR MI TO ACS International.
YUP by the time i reach... 2.05pm!

HENG THEY ALWAYS start laTE...
the teacher v nice, so heng.
THNKS JJ for helping me inform the Teacher.
im so SRY.
reach the sch i stil wan lau sai but no time.
SO I ENDURE all the way til i reach hm and LAU.
ITs all bcox of the trANSCAb UNCLE and my ezlink CARD
IF not i will nt BE LATE~!
and i reach the sch... mus use CD, so yes i prepared a CD.
IT kip JAMMMMMMMMMM like wad lousy remixs type.
WAa i give up...... iiiiii nv teach so like shit b4.

=[

so total i spent... $13.40 for cab ...
FUking suaY.

FUK UP UNCLEEEEEEEeeee
This is the 4th time i SAY U WATCHED OUT@!
poke ur eyes and mk u blind...
(LIKe rythm) lol~

i m so tired running ard like tt in a rush and panic and lausai feeling.....

Kevinn -tanglin
jus told me that time cab driver oso fuk up.
He ask can pay by cash card, he nv ans, den he ask again
uncle say DUNO.. cont to drive..

Kev ask one more timE he say he try,
DEN END UPP fuking spoiled his cashcard and act duno.
Then ask him no matter wad mus pay.

CB UNCLES....
Wads wrong with u ALL!
earn money not like tt earn one.
lifes hard so?
must mk other life's hard too AR!

CUStomers services like fuk.....
MITE AS WELL go eat shit and ask urself
suit to be a cab drive anot.
IFNoT JUS FUKING FUK OFffff~

now i hate tking CABsssss
all jus wan earn money,
put u somewhere to draw money, meter stil jumping...
jus wana earn more. kNN.
WE not HUMANS AR?

okie i v angry, its realli suayyyyyyyyy..

Luckily after tt i mit peiyiii for dinner,
everything's back to normal...
no suay no heng. jus nice =]
ahhyi is my FISHBALL and my WIFE

LOLXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
okok sry for vulgarities lots lots.
but u guys used to it. so it doesnt matter.
im still A PRINCESS, like it or not.lolx
THIS IS REALITY
LOL
i sounds like ANN.

I miss ann actualli =]
nv see her for long......
can u come back often? =)

I miss my buddy....
can u find me more often?
i feel the distance......
v far....
i cAnt reach u..
plz come closer.

I missssssssssssssss my grandpa
I missssssssssss ishi
I misssssss my life in poly sec pri kindergarden.
I misssss lishi my best fren

I missed the past... when i first join NRA
i misssss those inoccents me... AS in nt complicated me
WHAT U THINKIN?! TMD.

Ok and i MISS U =]

random pic in FEB

2009-02-18T02:25:00.025+08:00

RETRO NITE- PPP danzation 08(NRA)
OK my face is silly but cute, i know ~
i love this pic!!!! photo taking with REN YAO!!!! the gold hair....
VICToria..'s handmade specs

MY VDAY feb 14 with TARtar

my wasabi... done by me
his wasabi.... like sai, but kip claiming he's nicER! TMD

my pressies and a earpiecEEEEeeeeeeee
his beautiful wallet by me!!!!
eh we tk like 20 over pics, nope is perfect so at this stage we alrdy give up and kip luffing like maddddd
end up first pic like nicer... lol

MY HAMMYssss Slping positions:

QIU QIU
TinkY
WinkY
i just love my hammys

lastlYYYYY BREAKOUT
thats the stage with a biG bookkkkkk there :
thE THEATRE:
me with tar and his mama!!!

GLEN BDAE Surprised!
hope u like it!
Done by us!!!!!! ME, peiYi, BEc, Min, Lex, WQ, JJ. =]

VDAY vs BREAkOUT

2009-02-15T23:37:00.004+08:00

VDAY vs BREAKOUT

VDAY First.

Vday wasnt bad.
but actualli to me is a normal day.
no nid surprised to the max den i contented
as LONG as gt a nice dinner gt some things to do,
not like jus kip walking at town and get lost... duno wad to do...

then ok liao.
eh..not asking for too much ritE?
Today we ate SAKAE SUSHI
becoz there onli gt SAKAE.
as in for jap food.

i wana eat jap jap coz im fr jap wad
so naturally i wil crave for jap food
lol
punch me NOW LA
my sis ERiKO IMAI...! bleH

THE main pt is here:
me and dear went to arcade before our movie start.

this throwing balls game:
like u throw the enemies using soft ball to the screeN!
exciting ler...
we play Quite loNG
all our results is SUPER!
not A but S=SUPER!

zhEN YANg? lihai ba!
the strong couple.
of coz...
U NOE WHY? coz one bboY and one Dancer!
LOOOOOOLLLLLLL hannah slap me if u daRE- my bF gt 6 pacs,
come la... he gt muscles
box u ,u sure faint
oh ppl like TER sure die... not faint. LOL

We watched BENJAMIN BUTTONs
the show not bad
but srsli too dRAGGY AND abit too long which i din expected it.
its a 2 and half hr show! walau eh. i gt no patience. haaaa. =X
if let me choose, i wil stil chooSE to grow fr young to old
rather than old to youNG. =]

went tartar place to sTAY,
as usual, her mum ask us dun close the door fully,
v cute hor.
she scare i gt baby...
LOL
morning wake up gt dope noodles to eaT!!!
his mama nice mama =]
thnk u auntie..!

OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK CONTINUE TO READ
i noe my vday u not interestED, tmd go die ok.?
now

BREAK BREAK BREAK BREAK
BREAKOUT
BREAKOUT....!!!! SSSSUN 15 FEB 09.
ESPLANADE THEATRE.. CIRCLE 1 DOOR 7.
SEATS BB 55-57................

AISEH
ANYway lex mama wana watch so we bought the tixs a mth ago i tink.
conclusion: DOPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

and jj tel me she hates me after i told her i watch breakout today.

tmd jealous pig.

the starting is damn ulti funi,
i like this guys acted as "joker" the name
and this fit and botak guy acted as "lump" -beat boxer.

erm if i nv rmb wrongli...
there is abt 6-7 bboys
2 beat boxers
1 female dancer
2 bgirls.

a 1hr15mins show......

im v impressed by em
their passion on stagE
is way........ too strong.
Is also super ENTERTAINing and funny
their storyline and breaking is niCE!
even old, youth, kids...

all enjoy srsli
the audiences is high which i tot they will act cool and shutup.
the story is ez to und =]
believe me
coz a few kids infront of me kipp luffing like siao!
i nv stop luffing~

towards the ending...
i feel touched
hana... i emo kia
but really.
I was thinking, hell...
there are such ppl in this world
who wanted to spread their love n passion in
dance/breaking to the WORLD
and i mean worlD!
and i feel srsli proud of em...
they put in their 2000000%
i super touched.

and i told myself
when wil it b my turn like them on stage like this?
have i wasted for the past few yrs..
yes i did...
for the first 3 yrs.
in the end the audiences stand up and cheer for em.
u noe tt kind of... contented feeling and... omg
i duno hw to say la... nb.

oh got one paRT... coz they breakout the prison
so the cops finding the prisoners...
den they shone the torch light at a audience.
and kip playing with him... and say oh its a FROG.
Lol
ulti paiseh one.. coz they kip shining jus u!!!! thruout.
den the prisoners came to the aud and hide...
den they put a bomb -fake de la, to one of the aud.
then cops catch that girl...
ask her go on stage.......
den sae ps to HER and shake hands WITH HER!!!!
and give her A BREAKOUT T SHIRT!!!! KNN
i oso wan... but i at lvl 2...
den the prisoners went out again to the same girl when
she back to her seats...
and tk pics with her... and cont to run for their life....

WA I SUPER JEALOUS!!!!
y i nv sit dwstairs.
mayb they choose me!
lol
damn
but nvm
GD SHOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
i luv it
and thnks lex mama for treating me! =]
arigatou aunty!@!!!!!!

=] dun jealous ppl
i noe u all nv watch...
but nvmmmmmmmm
jus dun jealous. lol

act haolian****

love

2009-02-13T02:20:00.002+08:00

ok i like too long nv blog,

coz everytime i feel like bloggin, my lappy nt with me.
and my netwk gt prob... everytime if i wana blog badly. TMD.

Recently i suddenly tot of him
All the memories between us flash back in my mind.
i dono why, but i feel sad when i tot of him.
is he doing well up there or... he's alrdy gone.
Did he come to danzation and even wan to watch me dance?
and see did i improve the past few yrs?
Im sry, but i realli realli will thought of him sometimes.
i noe lex wun jealous and he will und =]

Is not i stil like him
is jus tt the past will sometimes br u back and recap...
i rmb how we met, hw we start to chat.
my first suntec, i met him
and its all started there.
nv wil i dreamt tt i wil met him and know him.

well sometimes or even nw i stil tinking am i silly at tt times?
why wld a guy like him fall for me.
or mayb he is jus plainly wan2 hv attentions.

The past was so sad to a pt,
i tink las time i gt depression minor one......
minor la. tmd
u tink wad... depressed til i jump off the building ar.
siaoooo

whenever i tink of the past

i duno wad to say
its a nice thing to noe him
its a sad thing to start too.
and a sad ending... for me......

i always tink tt im someone tt no one wil love me.
n0 one wil come to me.
since young the guys i like...
all tmd gt gf
lol

or even mayb gt sth with him
den end up like sai again
okok when i say sth, its not kiss, erm sex or sth
im so decent u noe....
wad i mean is like we like each other tt kind....
dun b stupid ok ppl. lol.

sigh
nvm
its the past...
i still living in this world
and i noe alex tay love me =]
then its enuff le.

as long as everything is smooth and peace..
we will be fine........
coz my lex gt bad temper lol
everyone noes...
lol

da jia,
must love the person and treasure the person with u now ok.
it mite nt be the rite one but who knows he or she is ur rite one =]

i love alex
and i love my frenz
i treasured the friendship all of us have.

i love becca, von, peiyi, wangqin, ter, glen, jj, yen,
joyce, xian, fredy(though i seldom see him le)

tmd de again i sae the same names....
as usual la, u all noe whos my GANG
lol
gang like lian but nvm i like ler.

i tink i misssed out some names
u all fill in urself ok. lol

im a princess cannot type much....

LISTEN AGaIN
IM A priNCESSSSSSSSSSSSS
orange the cute princess

though nt as princess as peiyi but she act one
so different.

LOLLOL

hao la, i gtg, love love

and enjoy VDAY.

single ladies,
nvmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
ur rite one on the way!!!!!!!

loves

dance again

2009-01-24T00:07:00.003+08:00

HELLO everyoneeee

Shiok rite, dance dance and dance

classes started...

all e class warm up is biantai....
CRAzY

buT i love it!!!!

seriously only one wk.
i feel i gt 6 pacs.
ok fine 4 pacs...
okok......... erm 2pacs can?

lol hannah DON HAVE LA KNN

but my abs srsly AChINGGGGGGGGGGGGG
my back ,dun care is upper or lower or middle....
KNN IS FUKING PAINNNNNNNNN
my shoulder, my armpit... my butt my inner thigh...
my foot.... my toe nails.. my toe... my fingerssss....

ALL SAY : ACHING ACHING ACHING!!!!!!

funny hor if they noes how to tok...
den u warm up half way, they shouted
ACHING LAA PAIN LAaaaa....
LOL

ooo oooo

anyway i realli love wacking since duno when...
sry ar is whacking or wacking?

can someoone tag and let me noe
COZ IM V lousy at ENG LA
luff or say wakau, like oso duno hw to spell
i sure punch uuuuu and i mean FOR SURE!

but wacking not "IN" last time
and no one reall i teach tt in spore.
soo when i see youtube...
ooooooooooo like hw to do it. damn fast...
lol and nice

i like cheoro with hands hands and hands
u realised mine omos all gt hands swing sswing swing or upupup.

lol

hannah
i lousy

only hands.

by e way
arigatou ja ei
for always assisting me
i noe tiring, i noe i noe...
but u v funny
u always giv me a GEK SAI FACE
like ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
must do this... oh no.............................
lol
lolx
lolx

srsly thnk uuuuuu

everyone enjoy n wk hard for dance ok =]

jia oil oil oil..

random!

2009-01-14T03:39:00.002+08:00

FIRSTLY I Duno why my blog cant have COLOR FONTS.
ASShole, must be my LOUSY LAPPY.
NID TO CHANGE A NEW LAPPY!!!!

ANYWAY this is my 3 rd TIME IN MY LIFE
Cockroach Crawl onto my BODY!
Within half a Yr,I kana 3 Cockroaches!
KNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EEeeeWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! SICK!

Stupid ass. stop crawling to me
I will bash u to HELL, i tell U!
@((#$(%%(&^*)&$^(%^($%($##@!@

LOLx vulgar girl as usual =]
that time i chat with PEiyi.

WE damn CHILdish.
Ok i childish...

I type : !#@$$^%*&(*%%$$$%^^&&*&
AND I happily tel her...:
HAHAHAHA U DUNO WHAT IM SCOLDING YOU!!!
LOL YES YES!!!!

-.-
Quite childish but FUN.
COZ i nv scold nb, knn. chicken nuggets...
BUT I SCOLDed @(#($^%^)$^()@)@_!%^
Who noes i scold ???????????? LOL
ok i neo u all mus be tinking crazy old woman.

YES PPL!
Saying abt aGE!
IS REALLI KNN CCB

BCOZ
I used to tink why girls bother abt AGE
old means old...

till i HIT 22...
AGE starts to don giv face!
It gets on so FAST
just like a freaking fast traiNNNN
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMmm
im going to 24 soon in JUNE THIS YR!

NOW IM STIL 23.
KNN dun tell me this yr u 24!!! LOL
I WILL SCOLD N SLAP U In ya fACE!!!!!!!
coz its nt june YET BITCHes and bastards =]
SO get it clear...
Im 23 now
coz im born in june
not jan!

i only live in this world for 23 yrs almost 7 mths.
I stil gt 5 mths plus then tURN 24 yrs SHARP.

DON BLOODY HELL SAY IM 24 now
PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
IBEGU
LOL

Hannah shui Bian la
the most u say i go Commit suicide only.
NO big deal losing a fren like me rite

ALL BASTArds frenzzzz lol

My wisdom tooth is killing me
ITs with me for more den 6 mths
yet i tot nvm nvm let it grow "SHUI x2" (pretty)

nb food kip stuck, nvm
I go DIG, IT bleed sometimes..
recently worse.
Gum swollen on and off

Stup teeth
lousyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

WHY MUS hv wisdom tooth?
COz i gt wisdom?

OR i dun hv so it grow up?

NB
mk mi pain only.
I DUN LIKE U!
GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

assholes...

Erm recently i gt bad mood
so u all try nt to provoke me ok.
MY mood bad = i shoot u til v poisonous...
COz i actualli dun giv a damn whether u r my fren anot
I tink its nt rite
i SHOOT SHOOT SHOot

yes bad temper
bad fren
well.......i wun say im like tt what can u do?
that one to GL

BUt i wil say
IF i tink its nt rite
I will fite all e way

yes im a GUAI LAN XIA LAN KIA
BUT im nt KB

dont let me hear u say i KB
coz i wil BOX U.

anyway one las thing.
YING YANG twin gt a new song : NAGGIN

When i see it , i dun like.
COz guys saing girls naggin.'

STUPID GUYS only tink girls NAGGIN
When tryin to win our heart...
HW COME I DIN SEE THEY WIL TINK WHETHER WE NAG ANOT?

TGT den SAE NAG.
It happens to almost all girls ba.
SO i dislike tt song NAGGIN.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL i tink i naggin now
FINE FINE FINE
ISHUTUP.

I KIP QUIET!!!!!!

LIFE

2009-01-10T15:18:00.002+08:00

HELLO ALL!!!!!

How's life?

If i nv see u all for 1-2 days i felt super LONG
Coz i everyday see u all That time...

Though all of ur face look like SAi but not as bad as TEr's face
But i still miss u all =]

Dance class's STARTING
ChineSe New yr's COMING
But nth to excited abt CNY
Coz old liao , Hong bao lesser n lessER!
Boring CNY... every yr same.........

Anyway just recently alot of things happened
Which i start to tink why............

I dont know...
dont ask me wad happened...
long storY...

sometimes i ask myself ARE U DEFENSIVE OR ME?

Yes ppl im a Guai Lan GIrl
I super GL when it comes to arguement...
rite??????????????????????
nb...
hannah
Im fuking G.L ok!

Lol
but nt as GL as my leX.
He's ULTImaTEEEeee infinity...~

LOL

but anyway yes i felt things Start to change.
No choice but to MOVE on

im tired of life being like that...
can i jus end my life here?
Its so frustratin and irritating...
Life is getting ptless again n again
Hw long will i live til?
50? 60 ? or even 80?sigh

And this morning i wake up and tink,
How long can we be tgt with ur parent?
They r getting old...
someday they will leave us.
I don wan...
I wan to be with em foreVa...
but the truth is they r getting older and older each day.
And we shld treasure it fr now on if u haven start to.
Coz i din treasure as much as i cld.

I wan to start now.
Have u see their face clearly b4?
I tink i nv...

nth happen to my parent =]
Jus tt a tot came in this morning when i woke up.
Ifind it scaRy...

Ya... and im tinking hw wil it look like the day i died.
Painful? peaceful? without knowing?

ok fine... i tink too mUCH jus like ter n wq
always imagine e whole world bcome ZOMBIES... den wad
r we goin to do? LOL stup!!!!!!!!

GDBYE ALLLLLLLLL see u all sooN

feelings

2009-01-04T03:07:00.002+08:00

MAybe sth is not-fated at all
thats why i named it not-fated for my Blog.

Sth cant be force...
sth that i cant even ctrl it.

Drifted.
So what if its good for mths only.
Then suddenly everything back to the quiet-ness.

i Hate it when happiness dont last.
I cant blame it coz life is like that.
As time goes by, i grow up alil everyday
Tryin to know what is life what is life...

Till now im nt sure abt it.
Do you noe what is life all abt?
Play eat slp work enjoy happi sad angry cry...

life is jus about this rite?

sometimes im too harsh to certain things
bcoz i find it ridiculous.
Sometimes i jus cant be bothered abt it
bcoz i had enuff.

I NOE U ALL MUS BE TInking YA LILING IS APISSED OFF GIRL...
-.-
okok fine i am...
But my temper was better, really.
If i can scold u, means i reach my max limits.
recently i tink the tanglin outing i realli angry...
and scold 2-3ppl.
AM sry but its v irritating las min all don wan come/cant mk it.

ITs nt v nice to tel our ext ppl saying oh sry THEY LAS min cant
when they all present...

and we only less than 5 go....

Srsly, i HATE LAST MIN THING

So i cFm wil ANGRY.
pardon me...
but i guess i scolded Cc and jon...
sry............................

if u in my position oso will get pissed.
but i dont mean to.
peace alrite.
=]

the outing was not bad.
Feel old when with em
They r so so so young.
adorable jus like me.
ok they more adorable. =] happy?

when will dance class start?
and when it start how will things change?

i dont care whether i hv frenz anot, lolx
BUt............ things will stil change.
Things always get complicated.
SIGH.
Being an adult is IRRITATING
I wan to be a baby
cant rmb anything
Jus cry n ask for milk and slp soundly.

CAN u pls grant me this wish?

No more party.
No more happiness.

and even there is happiness stil, can u giv it to me?

lost

2008-12-31T03:53:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder,

What i really want in life.

Im getting alil confused.

I did enjoy the past few mths, enjoyable =]
Thanks all.

anyway happy new year Ishi =]
Hopre u r doing well up there

2008-12-24T02:20:00.017+08:00

I MISS U ALL

2008-12-22T23:52:00.002+08:00

DANZATION IS OVER

I MISS U GUYS

CAN WE DANCE AGAIN SOON?

I LOVE DANZation 08

I can feel the bondin so STRONG to a pt i cant believed it.
Its actualli amazing...

Thnk you my when i grow up ppl
I appreciate u all put in the hard wk into it.
I FEEL v gd when dancing with u guys,really
iCANFEel U!!!!

Thnks FReshies...
U girls and guys really did it...
!!!!!
AND REALLY DID IT can!
omg...
U ALL are dope shit.

Thnk u my choreographersssss
U guys are way too PRO
TIll i mus punch myself to get better to go to ur level i hope.

Thnkksss von my bud, becca the man.
Thanks ter the retard, WQ the asshole.
Thnk u Peiyi the asshole dirt, Su the FROG shit face,
Glen the niam kia, Min the AHMA, JOYce the lagger.
Thanks JJ the act sweet1, yen the lousy pok,
Cash and xiubei the ACt shy idiot.
Thanks YEwyeW the superly REtard, shufang the cry slutty,
Cheecheng the act shuai, shihua giam the bully..........

AIYA!!!!
ALOT LA
SIAO AR
TYPE TIL WHEN>>>>?

ok
LAstly
THNKS SMU AND TANGLIN

U GUYS ROCK TO the MAX
ILUV ALL OF U
SO ADORABLE JUS LIKE ME!!!!!
KAWAII!!!!!
MUACK!!!!

Thnks SMU for the notes
I realli wana cry after i read....
=[

thnks u i miss u all... =[

ITs realli realli nice to mit ya all.

Thnks tanglin kids...
U guys are amazing kids
Showmanship wow...
Thnk u!!!! for giving me the sneezing choco?
i love u all lots seriousli.

THanks DANCE Dynamic...
sexy to the max
I told em on the full dress saying
I tink i dun wear anything on the actual day to mk myself as sexy as em
They quite stunn
LOL

BUTBUT
i scare i nv wear..
Sure v sexy
So i better not manz
TOO BAD ALL
u all cant SEE
LOL

BUt i stil sexy eeven if i wear... sth on me.

OPS

HANAH
I NO FRENZ
U ALL ,ALL ASSHOLES biatch!

LOL

BUT I STIL LOVE U ALL LOADS!

Plz rmb me...
plz miss me

Coz i miss all of u =/

TAKE CARE
AND kip on dancing.

danzaiton08

2008-12-17T02:31:00.003+08:00

NRA DANZATION 2008 2 Days to DANZATION 08

ARE YOU RDY GUYS?

I SUPER STRESS

NOT ENOUGH SLPPPP

YEA ALL OF US NOT ENUFF REST

ITS LIKE THAT ONE,
PLZ ENJOY THE MOMENT WE ALL SPEND TIME TGT OK
ONCE IN A LIFETIME
IT WUN BE SAME FOR THE NX ONE.

SO PLEASE JIA U!

TO MY WHEN I GROW UP AND DOWN PPL:
sERIoUSLy U GUYS ARE GREAt!
i NV EXPECTED MYSELF TO CHEORO ONE WHOLE ITEM,
JUS BY MYSELF!!!!! nbnbnbnbnb
DAMN

aND U NOE WHAT?
U GUYS PORTRAY OUT THE CHEoro =]
WHICH IM SUPER PROUD OF U ALL.

realLy =]
BCOZ OF U GUYS
I love THE ITEM MORE.
STARTING I FIND IT ABIT BORING
ALMOST WANA CHANGE SOME PARTS...

lol
ITS THE CHEORO IM SAYING,
NOT U ALL OK
but after that u all... OOOOOOOOOOO
then heng i no nid change much

ISERIOUSLYLOVEUALL
CAN U FEEL ME?
LOL

I FEEL U seriously!
SO we must wk very hard.
ITS REALLY A: AUD LIKE IT OR CHEYYYY another typical lousy boring one.

i seriously tink we can hype up everything at tt part
SO PLZ JIA U.
GIVE ME a YOU, not ME ok?
which most of u are giving me a YOU le!

LIHAIZ

Muack

WE will be a dope shit on the both DAYs yeA?
Plz tell me yES! we will BE DOPE LIKE DUNO WAt shit of the shit
LOL
sounds like not rite
FINE...
WE WILL BE DOPE DOPE dope amazin shit, SOUNDS BETTER?
Hmmmm lolx
nvm

I believe we can do it
coz i feel u...! =]
Plz enjoy urself and dun let urself dw =]
I LOVE U ALL!

AND FRESHIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Im so freaking PROUD OF u girls
sometimes i see u all dance
the tears jus ............... came into my eyes
touched
and cant believe iiiiiiiiiiiii actualli get the chance to teach u all.
THNK U =)
AND I BELIEVE U ALL CAN DO IT LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEee u wun look like a freshies.
U girls rock the stage
same goes to the GUYSSSSSS
I love ya all when u all dance ur part
GOT GOOSEBUMP dao...
\
BUT we all musnt proud and haolian ok
We mus mk it better.

COZ theres nth is the best in this world
WE jus gt to mk it better n better each day =]

AND THNKS TER,
I learn alot from u. really thnk u soooo much.
u r a v gd chereographer and instructor to me =]

THNKS VON,
U let me know what is SEXY.
and i really love ur WHY SHLD I BE SAD.
Coz i din noe u noe hw to cheoro tt kinda dance =]
LOVE U SO MUCH.

THNKS JON,
FOr giving me a chance to try bboy.
Though gt one part i dance like RAGGAE =[
LOL i try nt to use butt ok.

THNKS CHAO,
Though u disappear
but i seriously like ur style.
U motivate me to dance sth more boyish.
Woooo

THNKS WQ and JJ,
Though i dance Raggae i feel i abit jazz funk.
BUT I v happi can be under u all =]
though wQ is fierce but nvm,
After tt i can punch her all i wan.
JJ stil the sweetest girl in earth, no temper.

THNKS Min and JOYCE,
I seriousli feel tortilla dope sai.
OK i mean damn nice.
I learn different style again this time.
I LIke it and thkssss for putting me in ya item =]

erm stil gt who i miss out?
OOOOO
impt one...

MYSELF.
thnks for tking the courage to chereo an item
mayb its nt tt gd or dope
BUt im v happi tt i have 38 of em under me
and giv me a chance to wk with em =]
I learn alot fr em too!
THNKS MYSELF. lol lol lol

AFTER DANZATION I Sure... like no FRENZ
coz im a rude girl
BUT NVM
I still mayb hv at least a fren i guess... LOL

HANAH KNN, dun fren dun fren la, CHILDISH SHIT>

LOL ok i super knn rude.
pardon me
But most of the time... lol im jus kidding la
U guys noe me well.
So accept me and come be my frenz =]

MUACKSSSSSSS

JIA UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

ALL NRA AND EXT GUEST,
WE CAN DO IT LIKE NIKE ADDIDAS FILA PUMA whatever...

LOL
HUGS AND KISSES **

food poisoning

2008-12-10T12:53:00.007+08:00

OK Here are some pics, when im at NUH, i took it DOWN:

At first my right hand; doc wana tk some blood test for me
but end up fail, so he plaster it back and proceed to Drippin'

GOOD news is, the needle went in! and can drip all i wan (lousy eng)

Bad news is i gt to tk my blood later again coz TOO DRY UP... no blood*

Here you go my drippin bag:
Quite painful actUally...~~~~

After 2 packs of drippin, den no one come change the thing for me,

U see my blood starts to flow back the tube?

Here~ CleareR... It start to pain alil...

Finally doc Liu Z.b came and help me tk my blood with another hand~~~

Nb.... PAIN I TELL U. but i v gd at enduring *applause.!*

now my hand gt 3 holes man...

Erm, doc say my part tt hit my head, mite nt able to grow hair at tt small part le.

KNN.............. i suay or suay....

my hair so Thin liao...

I realli go join peiyi liao... damn. i dont want.

But heng its inside...

Im gettin better n better.

Look more like a human now...

Cant dance yet but can try... mark =]

After this i GOT FORBIA le.

I hate to Lau sai and shit

I hate to GO to the toilet

Please dont eva Vomit again.

Don EVA fall dw again!

Dont hit my head and let mi bcome botAK...

Plz dont...

Im scared... Real scared...

I tio FOOD poisoning

And guys, my last meal IS KAP mAC....

Fillet O fish meal with milkShake.

So i duno is it bcoz of this

But i not going to Eat as often le!!!!!

KNN

If noe is KAP MAC

I will sue them until it change to long john silver.

Horrible u noe?

U noe hw i went thru the last 6th days at home?

Terrible night mare.

horrible life

2008-12-08T13:49:00.005+08:00

LAst thurs was horrible
AND i really mean horribLe...

I wake up at 1pm
Start to diarrhoea like mad,
All came out is water only.
within 4 hours,
I can diarr for 8 times... continuously.
This is nt the scariest part...

I went to bath at ard 6 plus evening
i went to the toilet bowl strg
and LAU all i wan,
Its horrible, i cant stop, its all jus water and water...
srsly, MY ASSHOLE freakin Pain!
Then i try to bath, oh my tian, the ass realli fuking PAIN...

U LUFF???? U try...
then i cont to lau, den vomit at the SAME TIME!!!!!!!
hw to lau and vomit at the same time?
when i onli hv one toilet bowl-.-

so i endure and vomit at the basin.
SIGh... nth to vomit alrdy, i alrdy do wadeva i can,
till a part... i finish vomit, i felt super giddy.
NX MOMENT is BLACKOUT,
NX MOMENT is a loud BOOOMMM
NX moment i wake up feelin my head hurts
i grab my head, its bleeding ..and i only wrapping a towel over me.
nx last moment, i see the edge of the wall, BLOOD
my hand BLOOD Too...

okie.............
i super scarE...
i went out the toilet jus wrappin my towel
and ask for help,
my mama stunned
she tot i say head bleedin is jking one... -.-

BUT I REALLY BLEED LIKe.. omg
i kip cryin,
i jus cannot stop cryin.

my dad arrived and send my to the doc immed.
the bone can be seen...
OMfreakingassTIAn...

i tell u i super scare....
so doc GLUE IT BACK (dun ask me why glue back and nt stitches*)

Everything was ok, but i was prettY WEAK.
I start to vomit and diarr and Fever againX.

During this 4-5 days,
IeveryDay see DOC,
KIP seeing
till finalli..... i become i super skinny idiot
I... breakdw and cry in MY room.
Why this timing?
why 2 wks away fr danzation?
Why a few days away from my dancepointe perf?
most crucial time and i TIO SaI...
I kip cryin infront of my mama...

Ytd sun nite
i stil vomit non stop.
I TELL U ITS LIKE HELL
I RATHER sTRG AWAY OK or JUS DIE Strg
ITs kiling me like duno what fuk
I realli almost giv up hopes.

End up i go NUH.
EMG Room
DOc SAy i super dehydrate and nid to stay for a nite.
POKE my meat, and wanted chk my blood,
BUT guess waD? No blood...! coz im way too dry.
CAN U IMAGINE I LAU AND PUKE TIL DRY UP....

WALAU, its damn scary, mks me wana treasure my life moRE.
Drippin on me-3 packs.

GO home, i look more like a human being srsly.
ICAN FEEL IM A HUMAN BEING AT LAST...
HAPPI til i go studio on the day i discharge.
=]
COZ i missed a lot of trg
but of coz i cant dance YET....
DAMN
3 days nt supposed to dance.
SO............. jia u me...

I dont wan screwed up.

That moment when im suffering,
I tot i cant dance anymore...
I tot there's alot of things i cldnt do anymore.

Wait for me,
I will be lively again. =]

fuk off plzz

2008-12-04T04:15:00.000+08:00

seriously i Dont wish to carry on.

Can i stop?

Say sth out from my heart to him abt us, ALSO Tio...
Say abit also angry,

im srsly the man,
He;s the girl

U noe why i dare to blog out
becoz... he wun read

I nv asked,
But i noe he wun la...

Even if yes, is he jus pop by.
Even he saw it...
He will tink its ptless manz

All i cld do is SMILEEEEEEEE when im tgt with him.

Since its so fake... so mian qiang
Why am i holding on?

ITs the love, the memories.

Though he love me like crazy last time... more than I DO.
NOW is opposite

SAd hor?

OPPositE, why did such things happened?

ITs the bboy thing.
He love bboy more than me
His tinking changed.
theres nth i can do.

Sometimes i felt tt im a loser.
Just a loser to him

My dance is nt strong.
when i stick to him so much,
He said, u dun have fren one mer? *ok guys this is nt funni,so dun Tag sae u realli no frenz*

Its ok if i nv meet him, he is totally FINE and happier than that.
If i too las min ask him out, he will be unhappy.
COZ ITS LAST MIN.
If i last min cant mit HIM, HE IS OKIE (totalli opp)

suddenli i angry, he ANGRY TOO, and hang the phone or walk away or OFFLINE

SRSly, this is the most Lihai tactics...
Coz mentalli ill treat uuuu
let u cant find him..and u stuck with eerything u wan to SAE...
APPLAUSE TO HIM
.
.
i feel i suffered more than him.
.
.
.
so what if i being ridiculous at times?
SO what?

WHY U CAN DO IT,
I CANT?

U PRINCE?
U KING?
U r born to be like this? then SO WHAT???????????

U say i tink too much...
What mks me tink so much?
YOU!

Everything my fault la..
I can no longer get gd treatment fr u when i even hv alil of XIAO JIE PI QI...

GOD DAMN IT.

everything to him is DOPEDOPEDOPE
BBOY BBOY Bboy and sometimes alil of GODGODGOD

IM JUS A ROBOT DOG to him laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

ctrl me lo.

go ahead

i had reach my limits =]

thnk u so much

danzaTION 08

2008-11-30T02:42:00.002+08:00

When will i STOP Dancing?

neveR =)

When will you stOp dancinG?

I will dance till the day that i cannot stand up to even walk/Move.

Just barely because i really LOVE to dance.
Just becoz i enjoy it when i DaNce.
Just becoz i haVe all of u to danCe with Me.

19 dayS to NRA DANZATION 08'

aRe yoU alL ReadY to danCe?
aRe yOu all ReadY to shoW what we have?
Are You reaDy to feel the love in NRA?

Are YOu readY to Touched the Audiences?
arE yoU readY to provE we Can DO iT?
And...

Are You reaDy to show ya loves one Out there?

To tell them why are we doing this,
Why we just cant help it but to continue and danCe like nobody;s watching.

=] JIA UUUUUUUUUUUUU ALLLLLLLL
WE definately WILL/CAN DO IT
NOT coz we ARE NIKE
BUT we are even strongEr than NIKE
SO we cAN and will DO IT =)

Its the MiraclE in Us...
The hard work and effort we put in.

Ganbatte Ne~
MUACKSssss

And random msg:
BudDy, i LOVE U,
We are not friEnd but buddy forEVa~

*the foreva like childish, but who caRes*

Breaking the boundaries

hammys

2008-11-28T18:48:00.004+08:00

OKIE THis is how my hammy SLEep~!!!

The angle not very cleaR:
This is TInky the FAtty bumbum! Their Daddy Qiu qiu:
slping soundly =]

Lastly Miss Winki,

Tsk Tsk... Why U SLP at ya Toilet!!!?

Thats the toilet for them to pee...

Yet she pee and slp inside...

With such a... unpleasant Pose...

But when i saw it, i smile.

Coz way too cute...

Anyway VERY FAT rite?

Tinky is Way Fatter than HER!!!!

They grow up liao

They Don wan to be Famous,

They wan to be Fatty bumbum =]

live a peaceful life and eat/slp everydAy just like now~

I love them more and more =]

Seeing them, make my day for sure =]

enjoy dancing

2008-11-26T04:01:00.003+08:00

Heellloooo all

I know u guys are reading
I know gt ppl read one

At first i tot no one read my blog onyl my close frenz

end up i realised all of u gt REad

COz U all just too KPO
BUt nvm i can und... ITs oki...
COnt to read on ... =]

I love you guys all
Everyone of u
Mayb except a few la
I cant love almost 200 ppl rite
siaooooo

but i duno why
I gt this feeling Happiness wun last
We gt to go back to reality that... we cant 24 hrs kip dancing
or SEE each other everyday just like now...

AM i rite?
Say im smart...

But i hope this 3 wks left will be the mosT exciting and fun timE tgt
NO matter is we fight, we play, we dance, we go home tgt, waitin bus tgt,
Eat tgt, walk a small distance tgt, sit behind the studio n tok cok with each other,
Beat each other, aCt song tgt, go toilet tgt....

Its all FUN and i treasured it alot...
i love being love
i love being fun
I love .... i just love it =]

Can u feel me?

I really happi to know everyone of u ALL
ALLLLLLLLLLL

So i believe tis is wad my life gave me
to make me wad i am today...
to mk me know all of u all...

ACTUALLY, my mama las time wana do abortion one ,
She wana throw me away fr her fat tender stomach.
Coz she scare i too chioo... lol jus kidding

BUT realli she almost go for abortion.
AND my doc saVe me... =]
SO im here to dance with U ALL
TO let me hv the DReam come true...
TO let me fall in love with dancE
TO let me danCe
TO let me get the happiness.......

my happiest time is
In nrA...
And nth else... Really...

Im so blessed.

I ... wordless
I really enjoy the time spending with u all

Sry i sounds like i going to DIE
BUT i noe happiness dun LAST for long
SO i nid to treasure now b4 i Regret...

Are u happy dancing with me for the past few days, mths or yrs?
If yes, pls let me noe =]

IF no, den nvm , don bloody hell tell me... lol
SUDDENLY I RUDE. LOLX

i guess i really love dance
and i noe i wun stop no matter what

I love, but mayb not PASSIONATE

People always ask me: what u like to do?
My answer without thinking is always DANCE

i duno why...
but i realli love it..
JUST love it...

=D

and loveeeeeeeeee u alll

must TEL me whether r u happy to danz with mE okie?
Heeeee
tell me i will giv ya a present!
Childish...

oh addition to todays topics: I WENT MEDIACORP, for audition..
By rite is briefing, end up AUDITION, last min sae.. u all must act.

SO WE ACTED
FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
but is solo ACting...
Act angry face then GOssip Face

they say i suit gossip more!

dAMn...

im nt a gossip person... sigh

dont leave me Here dancing alone

2008-11-22T02:12:00.002+08:00

No matter what happened...

We all must stick tgt.

No matter hw unhappy it is...

I still hope we can sort it out tgt.

No matter how terribly it feels...

We must support each other.

No matter what,
We must continue to dance tgt as a whole

I dont wish...
that end up
Im the only one dancing alone myself
And when i look back,
I cant see a single of u standing beside me,
Dancing with me.

I just want to dance happily eva after with all my dancing mates.

Can you all not leave me alone here...
We will keep on dancing tgt right?
We will have all the laughters tgt while dancing
and feel each other and support each other always right?

Tell me i am right...
Pls tell me i am right...

danzation 06

2008-11-20T04:15:00.024+08:00

Yo GUys, this is danzation 2006 - 2 yrs back:
Terence then the idiot wearing FINALE NRA T shirt design by him:SOME Random pics:

Bec wearing the MAC costume LOL:
BJON handsome, Ah yi preparing for 2nd half opening.... aunty Yi:
LOOK AT the ugly 2 , bomber HAIR!!!!!! TER and CLement:
BECCa and my BOY Lexxxx:
ORangE
After the hard work: MAC celebration... TMD KAP again... lolx:
Thnks for supporting... I hope u'll be here this yr too... you will rite? =]
Wo shi Y, Wo shi O, WO MEN SHI YO BUUDDDDYYYY:!
COOL: James tryin to act hip hhoppp only~~~~
MY boy n me... We not tgt yet at tt timeeeeee.... :
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Its over!!!!! =]
shimin... wana FAMOUS... Shake head:
OOOO.... someone took me... chioooo:
Locking : .... im in GREY at the corner left:
Beckie, my changer.... @ 2006... THNK UUUUUUU

Rehearsal on the day itself.... Finale:
Im a chamber maid with PEycheeeeee: Rehearsal.... ACT SMART WEAR SHORT...
SO u guys better nt wear short and rehearsal....
WWWAAAA whos that chio bu with short sKIRT???
Chiochio... 100 marks!

Getting rdy for DANZATION 2006!
this pic gt me at the back, nicole, von ,peychee, jenny kenneth... =] CHAMBER MAID

LOL, tryin to DO WAVEe.... but i guess i do it suckly.. lol

I MISS DANZATION 06 =]

DanzAtion 08 comiNGggggg

We must WOrk hard and mk it happen
though it mite nt be the same as last time anymore

BUT i really love u guys =]
aLL ALL ALL

Esp : Von buddy, Becca, Joyce, yen, min , Jj, xiAn, Yi, Ter, Glen, chao,
Clement, Wang qin and.... erm like many.... i too many frenz

I cant rmb...
LOL

JA ei the bangala, nIco the shorty, Chee ching the idiot, xiubei the haolian lead (LOL),Shaomin the sweety, mia the panda,peggy the heaD,huiting the song kia, shihua the skinny, eileen lee the jealous girl, chin my latin skinny partner, Yew yew the gay, ivan the piglet, joel the sailorm00n, cash the vain KIA, shufang the fat slut....

AND ANNNNNnnnnnnnn the act chio one oso... lol
LOL si liaooooo
IGOEATSAI SOON.. wish me luck... LOL

WALAU serious alot...
I name like that... till nx mth... oso wun finish

and my freshies girls 52 sexy chio one...
LOL
mk sure u all really chio on stAGE...

okie...
20th NOV
ermmmm

19DEc...
Means...? 1mth to danzation

@#@$$^^*&*%^%^$%@#$#%$%^%
WHAT?
KNNNNNNNN

HOU GAN LIAOOOOOO
CHICken burger do Re mI... Fa so... liaoooooo
WHERE GT TIME>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>?

ok i go........ eat shit nw... bye guys
We can do it ,jus like NIKE yeaH?

happy day

2008-11-17T01:43:00.006+08:00

OMG

I guEss i really not eNough RESt fROM dancingggggg

I love to dance
BUt realli too much til i O.0

I love it but yet my body cant tk it.
my fOot is RED NOW after i bath...
i lying on bed can feel my FEEt...
SWOLLEN feelin... HIgh
esp my big toe and smally TOeeee.
MY knee is weak thnks to TER's hse and chao Bout da bubblE...AND bboy JON.
THNKSSS, my KNEES SAY: THNK U ALL of u for mkinG me weak........and weird feelin!

LOL... ok gonna stand at the BACKSTAGE or PA system or Convention's toilet SOON.
That wil be my formation rite???????
NB... u all REally small Gas -.-
GROW UP MANZZZZzzzzz

if u duno hw to grow up
I got a SOLUTION!!!!
U noe hw?
COME DANCE MY SHOWCASE
WHEN I grow Up... I wan to be famous... wan to b a star wan to be in the MOvieeee

WEEeeee COOL IDEA.... =] SUPPORT ME and i will giv u a hug =]

NO LINK LIAOOOOO

TOdAy-sun
A V tiring day
MEredith kerr wkshop dope and fun but demoralise at the same times
COZ... I cant rmb the steps.. i nervous.. i humji
So din do well at all... but gd exp =]
I like her class~

Proceed to the magnum SPace for 101 freshies formation with ann/farid.
LIKE SCARy
too many pplz
HOT SIA....
BUt ya gd job but can be even betterRrrr =]

3 hrs break.
TOK cok n lunch with cheeching the idiot, XIantian the rd face,
David the no expression face but wana be Famous,
Von the fat pig, Peiyi the act chio kia, xiubei the haolian Lead,
Kitkat the blurr blurr FAce.

Very fun
coz
they also going to no FRenz sooN.
noe why?
THEY V RUDE TO ME AND OTHERS TOO
They sure no fren like me...
ESP CHEECHING AND PEIYI
U TWO REALLI BASKET SHIT
and i mean BASKET de SHIT....
LOLXXXXXXXXX

anyway i going to hv no frenz SOON....
esp i sae XIUBEI THE HAOLIAN LEAD

I DIE LIAO
I sure kana mistken say i wna b the lead...
i nv....
i Realli.... nVvvvv
LOOK AT MY FACE****
SO cute... where wil wan snatch ppl... lead.....
Though my face sweet like wat ann told me
and i so cute like wad cheeching say (XIAN HAI HIM)
ANd everyone tink i look quite nt bad type....

SO!!! WIll i even hv the tot of wana be famous like teR and david?
WILL I???? TINK B4 u tok to me!!!!!!
LOLX
ok.. i cfm tml i go studio no frenzzzz
SWEEE~~~~ i chio~~~~~~
hahahahahahahahahahhaha

Anyway mi n yi go KAP chew... hahah is CHILL.. jus kidding
U realli tink my eng LIKE SAAIIIII?
NT SAI LA... is abv SAI LVL... =]

TER, if u reading, u better bloody hell STOPPP LUFFING AT ME
U bastaRDDDDdd
my most bastard frenz TERence THEN then then...
lolx

me and yi love to act like a dancer
HAHAHAHAHAHA
We say every words mus end with a steps
DAMN FUNNY
den i realised studio 73 key with me!!!!

HOU GAN LIAO
I mus go back pass them the key....
nb
so on tHE WAY BAck, we walk back.
WE dance thru out while we tok (act like we dancer)
everyword every steps..... ---> like not rite the eng...-.-

but realli fun, nx time u all TRY =]
accent everything....

when back.. WE PLAY CHApteH?
feather with lotsa color use leg KICK u noe?
STUP, sure duno... no childhood....

BUT Ter showcase ppl me n yi
play till 1130 !!!!!!!
LUFF LIKE HELLLLLL

JJ v lousy at kicking
ter bec yen pro...
Jiajun not so bad
AH yi.. not v gd...
me improving =]
LOLX
its realli FUN
nx time post the vid here or facebk!!!!!!!

I LOVE U GUYSSSSS

names...

2008-11-12T15:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i try my best to rmb 45pplz names!

And i tell you,

I VERY SMARt,
I really rmb 45pplz names for the FRESHIES!

OoOooo SMART girl like me go where to find?
Thats why my studies if memories i sure A +++
TOo bad i not studying alrdy~

i nid to do a... bloody 53pplz of formations and BECCA too. LOL

I really HEadacH
ITs super challenging
Which i nv done that in my life BEFORE!
SO i actually Finish Drawing.

JUST THAT I Tink the STUdio cannot FIT... -.-

And..

YEST i see them dance bec's and my cheoro.
I...
i feel ToucheD...
Really...
IS the ... ERM i duno hw to saY

bUT i feel very happy
and seriously everyone improve ALOT ALOT

Which im v proud of them =]
about 5 wks more to danzation 08

So JIAU GIRLS!!!
YOu all can do it one =]

Am v proud of u girls =]

ill treat me

2008-11-08T18:31:00.003+08:00

NbCb is the word to describe~

I really tolerate him to a certain lvl...

LITTLE BITs of THING I OSO In wRONG!
Cb...

Jus a lil bit u noe?
I also wrong,
He nv delivered the msg clearly
End up I cb, i tio from him
Im WRONG, IM at FAULT~~!

I TELL u all STH.
I DID NTH WRONG AT ALL

NOt at aLL!
knn

DO my face seems to let ppl scold one?
Or do my face seems to even feel like slapping at times?
IF YES, TELL ME STRG IN MY FACE!

mother fuker

Im angry AGAIN!!!!!
so Its going to be vulgar again.
Im sry to the READERs

I just really dun und what i do wrong sometimes?
I wrong i noe le, i will apologise.
He wrong he dun even go USe his brain and THINK,
AND SCOLD ME Like hell
Mentally ill treat me like hell...

when i sae mentally... IS REaLLI MENTALLY!!!!
He bloody hell no nid to do anything
JUs by nt picking up my calls or sms me...
is alrdy mentally

Everything u try to argue or reason with him,
He will SAY SHUI BIAN LA~~~~ ANything~~~

SHUI Bian????????

WIN LIAO!!!!

Coz shui bian is U tink its like tt den ok lo
Cb one...

Guys nowadays all getting more n more cb...
nt all, but SOME...

ARghhhhhHHHHH

Tell me hw long can i endure...
Tell me how to let go...

tell me what am i going to do?

to stay or to leave?

I noe BBOY 1st
i 2nd..

But what we jus argue...
I tink
BBOY 1st
Frenz 2nd
slping 3rd
i 4th...

Im getting lower n lower in his position....

WHY!!!!!!!!

WHAT I hAD DONE WRONG!!!!!!

I aLRDY IMPROVE ALOT!!!
YET u going WORSe of the WORST

WHY mus i be treat by u LIKE that AGAIN n aGAIN???

WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cant tk it anymore...

Im a pet afterall?

If no, stop treatin me as and when u like.

Coz i feel irritating too.

My endurance level... reaching the maX

BLESS ME....

=[

Nothing

2008-11-07T03:08:00.002+08:00

Hey u know what?

Sometimes this world makes me wana live Longer

YEt...

Sometimes it makes me wana CUt it short

When can i ever ever see the rainbow infront of me?
I wonder... =/

NO rainbow in me
No sunshine in me

I am just myself
Total darkness

and when can i ever felt blissful?

I enjoyed life,
At the same time
I hate my life.

the only thing can let me be myself,

Mayb is only DanCe.

I dance for myself, not for YoU.
I no need to prove to anyone of you.

because its in me.
I only can prove it to myself
In order to move on.

BUt i still hate my life
When can it be bettER?

when....

I see nothing againx

RaNdommmm

2008-11-06T02:03:00.004+08:00

HELLO EVERyBOdYYYY

Hanah~~~ SRY SRY
MY previous post FREAKING VULGArrrrr

But then i not saying u all ma...
U all funny ler!!!

Kip asking me
What happen to ur BLOG recently? LOLX

-------------------------------------------------

Anyway ENd up i stil nv post COde eDge entry
LOL

But one thing to sae abt it...

COde Edge Suck!!!!

LOLX SHit liao.. must kana bi sHI againz

I mean the GRP results ALways SUCKY
last yr weird, this year weird.

Champion always deserve only top 3,
2nd and 3rd sometimes dont even deserve anything.. but get top 3.

YEA
Competition nv be FAIR
BUT COde edge always too OBVIOUS LIAO
theY jus let their ppl win go Dance2xs there

SHAKE heads*

ok I offended all the ppl liao !

Just being strg forward =]
PEAcE

So dun bother to join code edge, coz wun win one.
ITs only them winning. lolx

OK offend pplzzzz again...
IM SRY

I shut up ok... LOlx
But guess waD?
i dun giv a shit too...
-------------------------------------------------

DANZATION 08 COMING

I still not v ready.
BUt i will mk sure i will be RDY by then no matter WAT...
I cant let myself down again

SO everyone JIA UUUU

My freshies's girlssssssssss Also jia UUUUUUUU
My showcase pplz ALSO ALSO JIAAA uuuuuuuu

I can do it,
U can do it,
We can do it.
JUST DO IT - NiKE... (Lame)

------------------------------------------------------------

Im super tired and forgt what i actually wana blog...!
So very random.

Today joyce told me.. handwriting cld tel a person Character...

QUITE ACCURATE

Eg:

Some ppl handwritinG is starting neat neat den slowly u change the style or wrote differently within tt paragraph... :
This kinda ppl is: Dont know WHAT U want in ur LIFE

(THATS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) (SUPER ZHUN)

oh and if ur letter "Y"
got the stroke or curl up...
meaning not just "y"
The end of "y" will curl up one...
MEANS UR SEXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX very OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.....

if ur "y" u wrote jus one stroke dw without CURL ...
MEan UR SEXxxxxxxxxxxxxx..... SUPER SIANZZZZZZZZZZ LOW LOWLOW...

Ok... mine gt curl... so means.... ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

hw abt u?

Shy* u all noe my secRet... LOLX....
Shit i offended pplzzzz again.... LOLX

if U SUPER CURL "Y"..... MEANS SUPER 000000000000000ooooooooo
WeeWEEeeeeeeeee......

ok.. so nw chk it out.....
u all sure all go tink shit i Write "Y" IS CURL MA?

Coz immed i will tink like tt.....
o.0

HAnah i bian tai aR?

Chicken nuggets do Re mi.... DONT MK ME scold u the 7 BAD WORDSsss

DO Re ME Fa So La TI ....~~~~~~~ (KNNBCCB)

LOL i offend pplz againnnnnnnnn
I jus let u all noe nx time i scold DO re me fa so la ti.. means That one

So u all wun sae i VULGAR.... ok guys?
I stil gt frenz rite.....
=[

lolx

Coz tt stup Thin hair PEIYI say to me:
I GIVE U 2 YRS, IF u STIL SO RUDE, U sure no FRENZ BY then...!!!!
(Stare me with her BIG RD EYES but hair still THIN...)

LOLX oh no.. i tink i within 2 mths no frenzzzzzz
NVM ...
WQ i no frenz i join u OK...
COz u after danzation no frenz oso...
LOL
Shit i offend Wq...
means by then i wun hv any friends....

GUYS.... we....... me ... i ......
ermm....

Still my frenz rite?

" YOu Le PENg YOu, JUe Dui Wu Di !!!!! "

LOLX...
lame... im so lame...

Ok i go slp sOONnnnn
Luv u guys
So u better luv me back...

NB

ANGERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

2008-10-28T03:27:00.004+08:00

I admit that we girls are really silly sometimes

Even the bf have an affair will be fine...

To me is a BIG NONONO!!!!
TO ME its just a KNNBCCB FUKING guy.

Ok why am i so angry?
NAh, its nt me... of coz.

Its some guySSSSssss
And i mean GUYSSSSSSSSSS

DOnt be sensitive...
U tink im only sayinG u ar?

NO la... stil gt somemore same AS U one,
KNNBCCB guys

SRY for being rude...

BUT why i EVEN b0ther to say SORRY?
GO mirror and reflect Urself guysss...

IF u are faithful ENUFF den better be fuking CB faithful.
DOnt say i will do this do tt, promise this and tt
END UP jus a MOTHER CB FUKER...

I actually wanted to post this long ago liao
KNN

Im a vulgarity's girl
So learn to accept
But in real live i try nt to la
=] PEACE YO

BUT to those cb fuker...
TOO BAD
I DUN WAN MENTION NAMES

COZ will coz many gossipssssssssss

IF u prepare to HAVE another GIRl while hving GF,
THEN PREPARE TO LET ME BLOG or SAy or GOSSIPS
Or KANA look DW by pplz ard u~~~~~~

BUT IF U TINK ITS CB FUKING COOL,

Then WoWWWW Applause for u
U won the BEST THick L.J AWARDS =]

Bcoz guys have DIcks
So they cant resist...--->

tts wat my colleague told me.

Well...
Im sry to the readers...
that i v vulgar at this entry
I JUS SUDDENLI cannot tk it

COz i read a blog...
this girl REALLY STUP
I tink she duno his BF gt a GF one
Very cb one i tel u.

EH GUESSING WHO AR?
NOT DANCERS LA
no nid guess
u all wun noe de

BUT its jus another jerk ive seen la

BUt anyway
rEcently i easily GET offended

SO abit of things i will bu shuang...

Things i dun feel its rite
I will fite all the waY
I will SAy everything out no matter hw bushuang u ARE

ALL I CAN SAY IS:
TOO BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...

JUS FUK OFF ya.. =]

Back to the cb bastardssss knn jerks all ard

WAN TO FLIRT?
DONT GET A GF

WAN TO HV SEX?
EVERYWhere also have
THE bus stop near my HSE HERE got : REN YAO

CHIO ONe
FAT ,slim, Gd figure, SEXY all have

JUs near the bus stop.

OK not funny
BUt realli gt ren yao somewhere near my hse here =]

ok pplz if reading nw and noe u r unfaithful must be damn pissed
and feel mus be my ex GF GOSSIPS and spread

EH TELL U STH
IF U FEEL pissed abt ur GF spread all aRD
U Actualli Deserve it
U gt no rite to get angry
=]

GUYS i mention abv more than 4.
ALL LIKE THAT

SO GUYS, PLZ dun be a bastard
BE A MAN and DO THE RIGHT THING

BEING A JERK IS reaLLi A ASSHOlE CB KNN THING

U can pissed with me saying all this to U aLL

BUT THINK THRU UR BRAINNNNNNN

U dun worth for me to wry tt u r pissed =]
COZ u noe u aint doing a GD RITE THING

Touch ur heart and asked urself ~

Theres nth perfect
BUt u can mk it perfect if u wan to.

Then why spoiled the picture?

AblissfulRsbecomeADisaster.

Worse is u dun tink u r in the wrong

Thats the worse thing in humans.

ALways think u r rite and nv wan to Apologise.

Hw sad and pitiful is, in the world

SO dun 100% trust anyone.

hammy

2008-10-22T15:17:00.008+08:00

My KAWAII SYRIAN Hamsters!

QIU QIU look damn cute (Father)
I tink He starts to neo i'm his owner
Not so afraid of me le~ DAMN CUTE

Why do you take pics of me!

Quite Shuai~

Babies growing up

their color.. mixs..

White black and Brown~~~!!!Chio~~

I duno girl or guy ..

One is call: TInky

another call: Winki

On the 15th days , they Open EYES LE!

Today is the 17th days, they are super ACTIVE LIKE MAD?

This is QIu's new home~ Tank~ and he couldnt bite anymore~ YES!

LEft Niu kip biting... she will soon change to tank too~!

Nx Entry~~ CODE EDGE~

MY HAMSTERS

2008-10-15T17:06:00.016+08:00

OK This is my Hamsters's CAGE
SAFARI VS PLAYGROUND
After Niu give birth, Qiu's lucky to have another new home~
But the day we put Qiu to new hse, He start biting like maD!!!
Rmb he is not tt active?
NOW EVERY NITE HE BITES THE BAr -.- very noisy
Soon going to change to TANK's home, SEE HOW U Bite~! haha

This PIC> They bite at the SAME TIME!!!! left is NIu, Rite is QIu~
Everynite -.- its nt healthy to bite the bars you noe! STOP STOP!

Before Niu give birth:

One of the baby! I tink same color as MUmmy. it came to the first floor~~~ poor thing,

Still no eyes~10th days old:

Eh, after Niu give birth, She's FAT~ like human, Giv birth FAT~~~

NO la, i feed her eggs got protein, day by day bcome fatter than QIU~!!!

Lonely Him...

Where's my wiFE?

O.o Im here~~~ I miss you too~ but i nid to tk care of the babies first:

Searching for FOOD, captured on TV

KIP biting~ See he Bcame nauti~~~ He's not wad u all Thought : Guaiguai one

CLean clean cleAn

my new home. comfortable, OOoooooo

Eating Happily~

But he like become skinny abit, Coz he high class, eat nth... Pick on FOOD -.-

I buy quite alot of food liao, no money liao~~~~~

waiting for the babies to grow UP~

When they grow up, they want to be FAMOUS, want to be a STAR, Wan2 Be in the MOvie~

2008-10-15T04:03:00.003+08:00

I'm here again posting SAD and ANGER entry

CAN someone tell me...
Why is there love in such a WORld?
DO u have an exact ans?
OR u dont even know...

Love...
Is about Status, responsibility, Trust, Caring.
Love can turn out to be:
Betray, Hopeless, irresponsible, heartless, ignorance

I start to not trust about love.

People told me:
LOVE shld be a wonderful/Beautiful thing
LOVE is blissful
Without LOVE, Life isnt interesting

People also say:
Why must there be a status?
Is status so impt?
FREEDOM
U choose to with her /him why nid status?

TO me, love is hurtful

Its blissful, when u found the right one.
Love is too powerful like what tEr told me.
I AGREED, totally agreed

Becoz u can fully accept hw ugly is another person.
Or shld i say even if u are nt faithful,
He/She still will Accept.

Dont you find it too powerful to a certain extend?

Shit happened to all of us.
Hw u handle it?
TO move on?
Or to stop?

like i say if

GUYS cant UND GIRLS
and SAME THING.. GIRLS cant und GUYS

GUys cant giv what we want
and We cant giv what guys want

SO wHY IS THERE lOVE in the 1st placE?

I dont believe in this world all couples are fuking PERFECT
SURe aint perfecT one

no one is perfect
Then why is there a nid for loVe
and it turn out to be HATRED
Isnt this more cruel? =[

The more u love
The more hatred is there.

then why bothered to love?

To satisfied each other?
Something Fresh to u?
Wana giv it a try?
Wan to hv sex tgt and to enjoy it?
A taste of hving a companion?

I start to confused
As in all the love i ve seen ard me.
NOT ONLY ME
NOT ONLY SAYING me
Dont come and think tt oooooo ORanGe HV SEX~

-.-
Im seeing as a overall idiot.
YES U!!! STOP TINKING CROOKED... lolx

back to serious...

human change so fast
human wont realised until they Regret
Human are selfish

I cant stand being a Human being
HUman is............. scary

the more i see the world
the more scary it is

whats the most scary thing in life?
IS HUMAN BEING
not cockroaches, not lizard
not poisonous SPider
Not Rat nor mosquitoes...

IS U...
U As a human being.

human being got 2 side
1 is a KIND side
another is a EVIL side.

Everyone sure gt both.
even for tt one second u hope that the person wld fall dw the stairs
Or kill an ant or angry for anything

thats the evil side of u.
DONT BARGAIN!
I wont TOK COK
even if u find me IRRITATING ACT PRO... [Hee]

ok time to chk on ym syrian hamsters!

i rmb...

2008-10-13T01:58:00.005+08:00

I heard he don't care
I heard he isn't going to do anything

nothing...

1yr5mths1wks
This is what i get

shit...

He leave me hanging here,
He actually got the heart to leave me aside.
[are we still tgt? im nt sure, undefine]

Thats his character
So do i accept it?
Or i don't?

If he happens to read my entry,
he must be thinking ...
Why write out and let ppl see to think you r only the one pitiful?
but do u tink u are the one thats always right?
Sigh

no matter hw much i said/how much i do,
Im always in deep shit and nid to call him like millions times
Sms like mad, run after him ask him not to run away pls.

I rmb how much he love me like crazy at firsT
I rmb he hug me tightly and dont want let go of me
I rmb he cry when we quarrel
I rmb he hold my hand tightly and smile
I rmb i smsed him saying i miss him and he wanted to see me immediately.
I rmb the first kiss he gave me
I rmb hw much i meant to him
I rmb the fun we are tgt

I remember...

I rmb he's panic when i first angry with him
I rmb the places we say we must go tgt
I rmb he gave me a flower to support me when im competing

His frenz once ask him: "what is the thing you most afraid of?
He said "nothing, i only scare liling leave me"

=/

I rmb i was so cold in office and forgt to bring jacket along with me,
he came to my office the nx hour jus to pass me the jacket.
He bought lunch for me
He wait for me even i work till 1am
He cab home most of the time just to spend time with me
He secretly wait for me at the side till i finish my work.

But now,
Things are different
Thing ain't the same anymore
Things Change
Things dont always work the same anymore
He just become a heck care person
which i hope this will be the last thing to happen.
he heck care me
thinking he is always right.

No matter what he is right
and no one cld ever be as right as him
Including me.

I become helpless day by day
I cld only put on a smile to him and THATS ALL
I cant act princess throw temper
I cant put on a sad face
I cant Cry infront of him
I cant keep repeating things which he will thinks its irritaing
I cant say things he dont like
I cant force him to do sth he don't like
I cant...
nothing...

He cld throw temper at me
He can do anything he like
he can cry infront of me
he can tell me his sorrow
he can say things i dun like
he can force me to do things i hate
he can.....
anything

This pain i feel won't go away.

Im tired of running after you
Why not u run after me?
NAh... you die oso wun...

U will only scold me
Say i kaobei
Say i Fuck
Say i Irritating
Say i Ridiculour
Say i troublesome
Say i Stupid
Say i'm a idiot

this are the things that hurts me so much
this are the things u wont change for me

U gt ur dream to pursue
but u forgt the ppl ard you
the one u loves
the one that loves u
the one ard you supporting u
...
U forgt all abt it
U dont give a damn.
U r self indulgence..

U......

U....

hw can i ever ever forget the pain u gave ...

U really bear to see me like this
Once again leave me to death
leave me alone
and all i heard is Raindrops

I love you

why shld i be sad

2008-10-09T02:06:00.004+08:00

Love is life
And life is living
It's very special

It's such a shame but I'm leaving
Cant take the way you're mistreating me

I don't believe you wanna leave like this
I don't believe I just had my last real kiss
I do believe we'll laugh and reminise
Wait a minute don't bounce baby
Lets talk about this

So without me you'll be fine, right?
People make mistakes, to make up, to break up, to wake up
Cold and lonely, and chill baby u know me, u love me, im like ur homie,
Baby, console me, come here

The path you chose to run alone
I know you're independent you can make it on you're own.

I got to stop running
Stop chasing after you
becos i nv felt the way you've ever chase me before
I kip running
and you kip running away from me.

I miss the fun time we're tgt.
I miss the time that we used to kiss
I miss the time that we never had
I miss the love we're almost there
What happened to us now...

You told me you've changed..
You told me its funny when we're arguing
But i don't get it...
I don't get it why i am so not important to you,
When you decide to put me in second place.
I dont get it what is wrong to have alil temper sometimes,
when you always did it & i give in everytime.
Sometimes i dont even noe what i did wrong,
but end up i still give in and run after you.

What about you my deaR?

Hw many times must i kip running after you
when you dont even wan to give a damn to me
and only noe that im ridiculous in everything the moment im unhappy

Why you can b the one who gets angry and being ridiculous and nt me?

Why.....................................

why do we hv to be like this always
and leave me cryin alone here

you will nv come to me.......
Im e one who go to you......

why...

I guess we need to take a break,
a long break.

i dont want to get hurt by u again.
The promises u made always didnt come true.

U say if this one cannot work then cant...
how cld u say that...
how cld u luff when i cry
hw cld u scold me like fuck when i just jealous on sth.

how cld u do this to me...

How can u bear to see me like this...

Someone u loved... u wont treat them like this ba
Mayb we shldnt even start in the first place...

1yr 5 mths 1 wk.

What is this love abt... i start to doubt.

How can this happened...
If you want to go without me, by all mean
Coz im serious this time and i wil nt be the one to call, to sms to chase after u.

You've changed,
I've change to mk this rs better.
But you didnt...

Maybe it's meant to end.
So be it.
Coz you wont mk e effort to chase it back.
because you've turn into someone i dont know...
A stranger i cldnt recognise you
Im afraid to get near to you...

Im afraid and i'm tired...

can u feel it?
no.. u wont, coz u wld say "then its ur problem,
U wan to feel this way not me"

I'm nth to you afterall.
Go be ur dope bboy and fulfill ur dream
thats the only thing you care
coz im just sth annoying to u

my syrian hamster give birth

2008-10-08T17:03:00.002+08:00

My hamster give birth le...

after buying them the 11th days

Niuniu Giv birth while i washing cage half way and din noe she alrdy
Gave birth or giving birth still...

Was pretty STUNNED and shocked and i run away after i saw the babies

I stil say: WAKE UP! i nid to wash the cage first yo...
Happily tk away the BAse while removing 2nd floor where
they slping...

The nx moment i saw is the babies

2 babies
I hv no idea she gt eat away anot.
qiu qiu stil slping facing the sky position
Niu niu jus on top of him!

I tink she giv birth on top of him
lolx!

manage to remove qiuqiu.. phew
never touch her babies at all

I TOO HUMJI le
When isee the babies
I run from this living room rite to another end of another living room

my hand shivered and duno wad the hell am i going to DO

LOLX ok now everything is fine.

I hope this 2 kawaii cute babies faster grow up

BUT actualli we din noe she pregnant at all.

When lex bought he stil ask e uncle will pregnant anot?
Uncle: heng NAN la... shake heads *(v diffi)

stup uncle! its alrdy pregnant .... #$%($%*^&%&$

MK me freak out

Ok lets wait and SEE hw it will look like.

Anyway after she giv birth, i feel im a nanny

SO im not going to giv the babies to anyone
coz all my hardwk here
and only 2 babies

SO if u guys wan, wait for the nx rd they give birth den i will giv ok
nonono .. i sELL!!!!!!

100$ for 2?

oooooooooo

MY wishes

2008-10-05T04:51:00.004+08:00

SPEED REUNION 08Eriko imai

U know what's my Greatest wish beside Dacning?

To meet Speed one day.

The one and only.

Though i like PCD, Xiao zhu... but is LIKE not LOVE.

Idols to me is a tiring thing, until i fall in love with SPEED.

I really wish to meet them someday if i gt the ability to,
Or even watch their COncert =]

AND i'm totally in love with ERIKO IMAI, my sister. (lol)
As in I really realli admire her,
They make me go into dancing
If nt i wont be who i am today.
SOUNDS LIKE IM DOPE
but what i mean is...
I found my passion and my life isnt tt boring afterall
Its interesting in a way and i learnt alot in life !
REALLY im serious! =]

THANK U SPEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will work hard till the day i can meet u girls!
Or rather dance infront of THEM

REALLy, is my WISH...to meet em
BE ThEir backgrd DANCERS?????

=D

Qiu Qiu & Niu Niu!

2008-10-01T18:00:00.002+08:00

On the 26 Sept 08 FRIday:

Tar & Me bought 2 hamsters:

This is Niu Niu (Moomoo) Female:

1st day at my home, But now they gt a BIG CAGE, not this one of coz:

Anyway they are an item (COuple) 1 yr old hamsters
Here, this is QIU Qiu (snowball, cupball, ballball) Lotsa nick
Now u noe why we call HIM QIU QIU le?
TOO ROUND TOO CUTE =]
Adopted by Alex Tay & Orange Seah:

dance

2008-09-29T17:14:00.002+08:00

YESTERday... SUNDAY
I dance from 11am till 9pm non STOP.

V siao...

I actually at the first half i gt no energy to dance
coz i slept at 530am to dRaw my showcase formations...

but end up.. i nv do the formation!

ARGH

Time is tight...

we've gt 2.5mths to NRA DANZATION 08

JIAU UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Its been two mths..
My waist still pain...
SIGH
I start to wry...
Coz tt part is my KIdney part.

i cannot lean 45 degree LEFT back
I will feel the PAin in it...

I DUNO hw......
i tot was better...
BUT nw is like if i lean 45 degree back wil PAIN

I hope is jus twisted and pain and nth to do with e kidney.......

PRAY>>>>>>>>>>>>>> <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Different types of LOVE

2008-09-23T04:22:00.017+08:00

TO LOVE IS NOTHINGTo Be Loved Is Something...
To Love and Be Loved Is EVERYTHING...
I'll be your love
You are my everything
Love is a moment, That last ForevA
Just You & Me* No one else*
Spending all the time with YOU
Fallin in love with you, was way beyond my controL
I never knew Happiness,
UNTIL you Came into my LIFE*
I want to Grow old with YoU...
Sweetest Moment being With you~
Take my hand & NEVER LET GO...

When they asked me what i loved most about my LIFE,
I Smiled and said "YOU"

rude girl at mac

2008-09-19T18:14:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i spend my whole Evening With TARTAR =]

We went to eat the dopest BAchor MEe At my hsE Here (Coffee Shop)
Dope i tell YOU!

We went to search for hamster ard my hse pet's Shop
But dont have....
Coz tar Say he wants a hamster.

After that we proceed to MAC Slack!
GUYS HERES THE INTERESTING PART!

We saw a girl and boy sitting at MAC studying.

We sit directly infRont of Them.
I think they only sec sch.

This girl GOT Guai Lan face
This boy GOT super bookworm Face

Me and taR tinks that mayb they are couple?

While we slack at mac... plaYing our psp,
THis fuking GL girl Talks Very loud!

She mk me and tar Very pissed...
Even tar So GL, he thinks that she's TOO RIDICULOUS liao.

****
The guy was teaching her MAths (think for test or what)
Guy Patiently and gently teach this fukin gL Cha Bo.

GIrl: Ok do the working and let me SEE!
After the guy's done...

the Girl Erase everything ask him re write.
She said:

"Can you write smaller? Your handwriting is so ugly, Can you dont Write so big?"

When the guy explaining...
The girl : I Dont und... Why must be lidat? what you doing?
[all in GL Tone]

He use his mechanic pencil and do out the wking...
Suddenly the lead... broke....... [sry if i spell anything WRONG lol]

Tt girl pissed off saying: WA LAU i dun hv lead alrdy lo!!!! must buy again blabla...

when the girl get near the guy,
SHE also sAe: Whenever i get close to you, it irritates me you noe? my nose cannot stand your smell (touch her nose) you just gt this smell blablabla....

at the end of the day...

Dont noe they urgue abt slping at nite...

the girl say she always cannot get to slp...
so HP is like her medi...
mus see her hp play games blabla den can slp...
then the guy say her abit.... [concerning]
she stil scold him saying why over small matter must urgue with me?
U dun und mer? Its like medicine..... will let me fall aslp....

Me and taR LUFF OUT Loud

Alex almost wan to go scold her

Where gt so GL

Mayb my eng sux you all dun und...
=[

But realli fuking ugly and stil GL act princess....

Fuk man.... irritating shit....

Poor guy.... stil can endure
if me, i slap her and ask her study herself...

knn

ok ... sry realli, she too rude...

goodbye and tk care KEN

2008-09-17T14:14:00.001+08:00

Bye Ken.

U will be back soon !

We all waiting for u to be back to dance with Us again!

Pls tk caRe over there

We will miss You

Love = Sad

2008-09-11T02:50:00.002+08:00

I read Someone's Blog today.

IVAN show it to me.

it says:

Baby how's everything up above?
I know you must have become
the popular kid, that's why you
don't have time to come to my dream . . .
i'll wait patiently my dear, take your time.

Baby,
i'm on my own now,
and i know you'll always be watching over me.
I'm not afraid i'm not scared.
I know it going to be tough but come what may.
For i know you're there blessing me, helping me through.
I promise you i'll think of you before i sleep, like you want me to.
You're never gone, you're always here in my heart.
I love you baby, always will.

Baby,

I skipped work today.

And i'm feeling rather guilty over it. . .

When you're here, you'll tell me it is okay.

I can have more rest at home,

and go back to work refresh tomorrow.

You'll give me the tsk-tsking saying i'm a naughty girl.

And then say you should take an off day as well,

so you could be with me . . .

I miss you so much.

I prayed to you last night,

as I prayed, I looked up and I cried.

Why must it be you.

Why did you leave me here all alone.

Your eyes kept me going when I had nothing to go for.

Your touch held me up when I began to fall.

I slipped into silence as you slipped into death.

You're gone forever,

While I'm stuck in this world.

With a heart full of pain, I wish everything could change.

Baby, did you hear me?

Come to my dreams will you . . .

-------------------------------------------------------

This is NOT lyriCs,
This is NOT Story.

This is her blog , blogging abt she and her boyfriend.

Her Bf died when serving army @ brunei.
(ard june i guess)

This is REal.

Whatever u read, IS i Copy and paste some of the parts.
jus to share with u guys.

Treasure whatever u have rite now or before.
Treasure the one u are holding on to.
Dont tk it for granted,
Dont think that it will come to you so easily,
Dont neglect them becoz of your thousand millions of reasons

Please dont...

Because you might not noe someday...
That person might be gone just like that
and you will never Get to see them again.

Just like i will never get to See my friend-ishi again.

Everyone just live with their own life
Own goal
Own thing.

Its good to hv a goal =]
But rmb, Dont forget the ones that loves you.

Please dont forget me,
You can carry on and do the things you want,
But but pls dont forget me
dont Neglect me
Dont put me aside.

I'll be your love.
I'll be there if you need me.
but will you be there if i ever nid you?

Anything could happened,
but u always think its impossible to happen.
I guess the blog i had read is a live Example.

It does happeN.

what if one day Im gone like that,
What if one day u r gone just like tt as well?
What am i or u going to do?

Everyone just wish to stay Happy.
Everyone wants to be perfect.

I want to stay Happy just being with you
but how long could that last.

How much i must do to make us look perfect?
I mean be perfect..

I love you Tartar
I will treasure you more and everything i can.

SICK & DANCE

2008-09-09T15:41:00.002+08:00

Last SunDay REally CrazY
I dance from 1pm to 10pm,
Continously wo STOPPING.

Wa Im dope~
LOL
NO LA

I seldom dance whole daY like that
gOt onceis 6 hrs strg.
nx day wake up like HAndiCap... Serious.

SunDay From min/Joyce Showcase to RaggaE with Xuehui to My Own showcase and lastly to Von spears Showcase.
I almost died in the studio.

Coz By rite i tot... : SHIT I MUS ARCH BACK FR 3pm to 10pm,Sure SI~

BUT That STUP JOYCE... at ard 2pm... her CHe0ro Mus aRch BACK OSO!
I quite stunned turn ard and ask em... IS THIS JOYCE CHEORO?!
LOL
YES ITS JOYCE CHEORO (SEXY in a wAY) chicken nuggets...

So i actualli ARCH MY bAck since 2pm to 10 pm... non stoP.

Quite pissed.. lol
Coz my waist had not Freaking recover totally... which i DUNO Y,
Plus i Arch like tt for damn long... my back and waist cant realli Tk IT =[
SRY my back and waist...
Blame it on the cheorographers tt required to Arch. LOL LOL LOL

OPs!!! ok XUEHui one cannot blame. coz its a wkshop-ITS OK =]

So i mus blame von,Joyce and... myself? lol
ok Very LAmE!

Mon(ytd) i went to Breaking showcasE
Was quite moodY actually.....
Coz Ah... MY MENSES Came!!!
WalAu... still nvm...
I feel Like i abit not feeling well~
Headaches, FLu... throat weird.

Kinda pissed. Coz when u r sick ur menses came.
Or ur menses came, u start to Fall sick...
KNN...

I look pale ytd when im in the studio.
IVAN DAMN FUNNY

Ivan: Liling u Lai NA ge ar? (u come that one ar?)
Me: Stunn awhile, den NOds -YES HOW U NOE!
Ivan: sEE ur face i noe Liao...

Wa... lihai~ lolx

After tt i went to dinner with my alex tay hong ming.
DUCK RICE, YUMMY...!
fruits!!!
After we bought the fruits happily wana go home and walk to the v far bus STOp.
CHICKEN DO RE MI...
RAIN!!!!! HEAVILY...

Cold like shit....

-.-
totally sianz
Then lex ask me go his hse to stay
coz the bus stop jus infront no nid walk so far to my bus stop to go home,
coz sure WEt....

I tink for a sec...
Coz i got menses....
LOL

End up i stil go.
(i got Pad la ar...u guys tot i nv change mer , yuckS!)

Then was thinking why not i cab home in the middle of the nite.
And up bath le, act smart eat potatoes chips....
THEN REALLY FEEL I V SICK...

Start to Headache...
Start to feel my nosE WEIRD...
Start to weak...

Then Dear ask me stay at his hse SLp and get well fast.
so i gt to stay, he gave me 2 panadol......

Omg... when i slept....
I SWEAT, ... and kip sweating... oooo sweat.
Then i felt better abit
But after tt i start to sneeze like hell at nite.
My menses cramp........

ARGH feel like boxing my self to Fall aslp till morning.
LOL
but i feel abit better onli.

Nx morning we cab dw to NP (coz dear gt FYP)
den cab home... nbnbnbnb jam... end up $26.

When i going home i bought mac breakfast.
I jus v tempted to eat... though i sick.
OK OK I LOUSY.

NOw i stil feel SICK... =[

Damnz...... faster recover..
coz like tt i dont feel like dancing
Very restless...
Lata i got chao's item at 930pm...

JIA U!

SPEED IS BACK 2008

2008-09-03T03:14:00.007+08:00

Reunion on the 31st AUG 08!

SPEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SPEED IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When i saw the Videos on Youtube and thru SHa0miN's blog I STUNN!!!!

Can u believe that my SPEED, MY FAV BELOVED SPEED IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh eriko son is..... Kawaii =]

When Shane told me SPEED REUNITED
i sae: DONT BLUFF LA!

ARGH but its true!

I see the VIDEO TILL I Tears....
Sry... I too happy and touched!

ERIKO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ERIKO IMAI... my faV

OMG my dream come true.
I always dream and hope they reunite

THEY REALLI DO!

THank YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WILL SUPPORT u all , all THE WAY TILL I OLD LIAO i oso will!!

I really luv them deep down in my heart
and they r my part of the reasons for mking me to wan to DANCE

Silly.
but im not jking!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD
WO DE TIAN ~~~

I nv realli go all for idols
SPEED IS THE ONE WHO WILL ONLI MK me go ALL E WAY
NO matter what..
ok im crazy fan in a way...

NX time they hv concert in japan,
I sure fly there to watch.
I dont CARE
When i was young i tot i cant see em one coz they in JAPAN.

BUT when u grow up, anything is possible =]

OHHHHHH i stil v high and excited!!!
DDAMN~~~

SPEED HUI LAI LE!!!!
I cant believe it...

Rmb i always tel u all Im eriko's sis?

LOL

MY SISTer IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HIROKO shimabukuro + ERIKO imai + TAKAKO uehara + HITOE arakaki = SPEED

i love speed

SEXY MAMA

2008-09-02T01:56:00.005+08:00

Britney Spears

Pussy Cat Dolls

Ciara

Christina Aguilera

Janet Jackson

How can they be so sexy when they dance?
Their showmanships... dope
Their lines dope
Everything dope

Being Sexy is not Easy,
Not saying you r a girl means you are SEXY

Even a Gay can be more sexy than girls.

Even nra guys can be more sexy than us
LOL

But 100% guarantee our nra guys are all Straight!

=]

That day i get to dance Von spears...
SHIT I TYPE SPEARS... -.-

Ok Von's cheoro

NB
Difficult for me

ARCH UR BACK
CAT WALK
ConfiDenT
Swing UR HAIR ALL OVer till ur neck Ache like hell...
LOL

Ops im not complainIng (LOL)

Actually since NRA Lush- suntec.2005
I never get to dance girlish stuff much =[

I love to dance more girlish one
or girls hiphop

But kana put in all man's item
LOL
Man man man...
all man

lucky i nv become man

I actually duno i on more girls style or guys?

Confusing till im a half girl and guy now
Im les....

LOL LOL

BU HAO XiaO

Ok i hope i get used to it... sexy sexy

Coz i get use to dance hiphop than girlish

Thats why i try to cheoro girlish dance on my showcase
HEEEEEE

hope it dont look... weird...

pray*

Eh i watch PCD's recent videos

WALAU EH
freakin SEXY
OMG

i tell ah yi say i wan to be sexy like them one day
den nx time i everything oso cheoro SEXY only...
Only i can cheoro SEXY dance

LOL!!!!!!!!
sounds very haolian!!!!!

GUYS DONT bishi me
I anyhw SAY ONE!!!!
dont blog and comment me:
" i see a girl's blog damn haolian...
say wana be sexy and only one to be sexy...
Let see hw sexy she can Be... haolian slut"

LOL PLZ DONT OK
COZ I JUS SAYING lol (humji...)

AnywaY rough aDdicts nx round comp

WE SURE JOIn TGT...
dont you girls dare to... PS

rough addicts.............................................

(lol remind me of sth...)

Sayonara...
jia u for danzation 08.......

[Dance to Express, not to Impress]

Total darkneSs

2008-08-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Everything around me are getting real Bad at times.

Tell me how to solve it.

I feel that i'm going to have Depression real soon
Those minor one.

I really going to have it soon coz i can realli feel its coming.

I wish i can die asap
Cut my life shorter.
Or maybe mk it strg Tomolo
just let me die now and i will feel released.

SomeOne plz tk me out from Here
Coz i Feel its getting Pointless again and again for Everything.

And i mean EVERYTHING:
Friendship, relationship, career, Dance

Sadness in me,
Anger in me,
Frustrations in me,
Sorrow in me.

Tell me how am i going to pull thru Alone?

and i mean ALONE...

U r always not there for me
U r always thinking about urself, urself and urself.
U only thought what wld happen to yourself

Since when have u eVa thought abt what had happened
and whats going to happen to me?

Since when...?

My "u" can mean anyone of them.

heart broken
Seriously my heart alrdy dead for quite sometimes.
But Who careS?
nobody.

Coz everyone are busy jus to tink abt themselves only.

This person told me:
U will be happy as loNg as u can Dance only
U never want to improve or sth or be the top.

Is it true?
Do you really know me?

I'm not sure.

This person told me that he/she wasn't GUILTY
at all on what He/She did to me.

All i could say is... i've got nth more to say.

sometimes i wonder what is Dream?
Do dream really come true?
Yes i guess.

But mine is all e night mare...
This 1 wk i always gt night Mare.
I didnt realli slp well, i feel im forcing myself to SLP
I Didnt eat well...
Guess my MOODs is affecting me.

every single nite since then...
I tears at nite
wondering why am i in this world and
I noe im nt perfect...
So i cant be perfect for each and everyone out there.
I ask myself why do it have to be this way?
Is this what God have given me?
Do i have to accept all the things ard me and let me be this waY?
Did i do the wRong thing to make u unhappy?

did i.... why... what ... how.... is it....

All the questions come to me at nite before i sleep.

U may tink im crazy trying to Act emo...
Ya im emo and down,
But i m not actinG.

For wad i wan to mk myself like a fool or go to SAD Mode
I rather be happy everyday and live to fullest.

But i cant.

I cant get out of the Dark..

I cant see anything..

hurt

2008-08-20T15:37:00.000+08:00

THE SADDEST THING ON EARTH = "LOVE"

i rather not have it.

Heartbroken

2008-08-18T15:58:00.000+08:00

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't... ListeN...

And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind

You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me

You should have listened.

(This is how i felt... for the past 1 wk)

If a guy and a girl cant und each other
And cant give wad they want,
Then why is there such a word "LOVE" in this world do exist?

Can someone tell me?
Coz i dont seems to und AnyMore

mother fuker

2008-08-14T15:46:00.000+08:00

Hello all

This post is just to tell you that someone in my life tell me this:

Do you know you are fuking KAOBEI?
(continue scolding...)

Very kB........ point at me kip poking me
Super fuking KB just now

Very FaN
Very irritating

U want cry you jus cry all the way,
Dont half way cry half way stop.

U wan KB... U KB all the way den dont cRY,
It gets so irritating when Half half

When i cry...........

The person luff..................

saying: SO WhaT? (with all the hand's action)

What can u do?

USe both the hands grab my shoulder to tel me im Damn KB

I breakdown........

Seriously till today my heart cannot take it
Hw can a person talk to u like that unless he or she is ur enemy/Strangers.

U mus be wondering who the hell is it that talks to me like tis?
NAh no nid to guess
U will nv guess it rite.
AND PLZ DONT COME TO ME AND ASK ME
Coz i will jus SMILE =]

My Heart ache...
So paiN each and every single timE

My heart beat will definately stop 1 daY.
1 fine day when im so clear and knows whats happening.

I can no longer get angry
Coz i actually dont hv the right to.

Guys...
If u guys also tink i FUKING NB CB KB

COme and tell me personally ok..

Tok to me nicely...
DOnt yell at me
Coz i dont tink i able to tk another one...

I noe im quite KB sometimes

Maybe im jus a mother fuker.....

A idiot who duno herself is irritating

The time wont stop for me
The time wont heal me either
I really hope i dont exist in this world

God,
Pls dun give me nx life
coz i no nid it and i dont want it

I start to HATE LOVE,FRIENDSHIP and anything that u nid to giv out ur love to others.

SRY if i sounds rude

Coz there are more ppl out there that r more RUde than me.

Im just a idiot

So leave me alone ok

FREEE

2008-08-08T11:43:00.000+08:00

I'm FREE , YES!

Thanks Dawn, Boss, Rachel and Chuan Wei =]

Thanksssss a million

It's time to start cheoroing...

But my brain cell's Dead.

ArgHhhhhhh

I'm kinda miss rough addicts ...
We on new paper... for suntec...
Zai!

But then all fat ugly face...
omg omg omg

Nx comp we join tgt oki.
meanwhile train hard
and nx up = Danzation 08

JIA U

=[ RAddicts

2008-07-29T15:43:00.000+08:00

OMG
I went back to youtube to watch Rough addicts again!
OMGOMG

Is like almost a yr...

Battleground...
I actually cant believe that i... did participate Battleground before!
SOB

OMG...
I miss that time...
I miss Rough Addicts...
When can we go to competitions tgt again?

Rough Addicts =]

=]

2008-07-24T16:21:00.000+08:00

I'm Glad to teach U guys (A class)

=]

danzaiton

2008-07-22T14:06:00.001+08:00

JIA U Everyone.

We are going to start Danzation soon Soon,

Excited? ya but damn strEss actually.

Jia u all...

Its a damn streSs thing but i believe we can do it =]

danceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2008-07-08T05:17:00.000+08:00

1 month nv blog,

Real Busy till
PHysically oooooooooooooooo need REST
Really, if nt one day i end up in hospital i oso dont know why.
LOL KUA ZHANG,

But seriously u dono whether one day ur body only can tk till so much only and u collaspe.

Friday night and sat night i rest at home.
MY body reacts to me saying: OOOOO FINALLY, i'm resting...

Tt day i go massage,
Robert say: U are too tired, my Heart weaken abit... the heart beats like not normal.

Suddenly i feel...
Erm i felt sry for my bodY... somehw la

YEAH MIND OVER BODY
But impossible mind over body for 100 days withut resting rite?
Everyday At wk , i depends on MIND OVER BODY.
Im serious. if not i already fall aslp in the office...

ITs mon again,
And i need to dance everyday.
I enjoyed it seriously- the feel for dance is getting stronger somehw.
And i really feel it...
from ym heart my body.

Many ppl say, how long can u dance?
Forlife?
Last time i told em, im not sure ler.

Now they ask me back again;
I told em: As long as i could, as long as i'm still living in this world.
Which i guarantee... i wan to dance for life.
Very sure...
I dont why is this so strong,
Even though i'm not a very gd dancer, ok im not.
I do feel for dance deep dw inside me.
PAssion or interesT?
I dont know hw to explain.

Many of them told me,
Wk and Dance = Same

everyone wants to tel me

u cant put Dance in e 1st place but wk.

I can seriousli honestly sae: YES, im not ready f0r work.
Im not mature enuff to tink to another level yet.

But whats wrong tt i put dance in the first placE?
Always ppl told me wk n dance (LINK It)
We will sure argue.

MY boss, my instructor, beckie, my sec sch frenz................... etc

They mite not und wad im trying to say,
Im bad at saying... words.......

But i hope u guys und tt i put dance and work in a seperate thingy.
Doesnt mean i treat dance gd = i treat wk bad.
I just cant find what i wan except dance.

Please und.........
PLease.
Esp ppl who r close to me

IF not i feel ptless living here.
Pointless

I wish m y love ones... all und me.
Hear me out.
Talk to me.
Care for me...

Thats all i could ask for.

(You guys are always part of my life)
(Esp Alex, Von, Bec, Yen, Clement, Glen, Lishi)

These are the one who und me the most (no matter is it last time or now)

Please...
Dont leave me alone.

(don't leave me behind)
(don't throw me aside)

(i'm scare)

And ishi, hope you are happy up there.
(i hv no time to pay respect, i feel bad)
[PRayinG that you r happy n0 matter what]

bday

2008-06-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

What i want for my BDAY on 20th june

YES I wan to giv u all some HINT

Coz i always duno wad i wan on my bDae

So i kip helping u guys to Think. easier. lol

HEre are wad i really want... :

( scully end up i no pressie at all and no one read my stup BLOG, loL! )

Choice 1 - Cupboard

Choice 2 - High cut Shoe (white base)

Choice 3- JeanS = baggy / normal oso can (prefer baggy DOPE chio one)

Choice 4 - A Bag from fareast with choco PRinting (onli lex noe it)

Choice 5- Denim Skirt - not too long nor short

Choice 6- Big T shirt for dance - nice PRintting!!

Choice 7 - MONey ($500 or more)

OK guys... u all noe what to do.

Discuss among urself who to buy choice WAT...

YEaH... lol

I act confident.

I gt a feeling i wun hv any of this. LOL

But well its ok. i dun wan kana rob this yr on my bdae.
and no cake in studio on e actual day of my bdae (quite sad)

But the robbing was dope idea.................
BUT I LLOSTT my wallet on tt day mus go police station. LOL

Wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
I duno wad to do on my bDay.
Spore is BORING shit!!!!

tartar

2008-06-03T16:19:00.000+08:00

I miss my tartaR lotS

Hugs.

I noe you miss me too =]

Jia u for eXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we watch kung fu panda tgt!
We go eat delicious food tgt!
We go beach tgt,
Go everywhere tgt =]

YEAH

Connie the talent

2008-05-29T18:09:00.000+08:00

I Really love this young lil kid Connie talbot.

I'm going to buy her Album real soon!

that time i gt to know abt her on youtube- Britain's got talent.
I was like omg...
Why i nv like tt since young. LOL (yea impossible)

Then one day i went to work, i walk pass HMV, I hear her voice,

I tot i Tink TOO MUCH, like omg she gt an album mer?
So i tink mayb i heard wrongly.

Ok mayb i slow,
BUT I CFM SHE got album
And she came to SPORE B4!!!!!!!!

Why i duno...
Lau, if nt i go and support her!

Such a kawaii singer =]

one of her link here
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7j8NhBtnpw&feature=related

SICK FEVER HEADACHE FLU

2008-05-21T01:30:00.000+08:00

I've been sick recently.
I guess is the worse time ever.

Yesterday, I'm unable to go to work.
Because i TI0 serious FLU.
While waiting for the doctor,
I start to feel i have headache & Fever.
But the nurse chk on me say i dont hv any fever.

SO i assume i tink too much.
When i went in to e doc, i did tel him i GOt slight headache.
HE nods.

So when i collect my medi,
I have - Flu pills, wind (for stomach), victamins and cough syrup.

BUT WHEn i gt home i realise there's no medi for headach,
so i tot mayb my headach to him is nth much ba.

BUT GUYS,
I eat the medi go slp
MY HEADACH BECOME WORSE,
AND I GOT HIGH FEVER.
I SHIVERED.
NO ONE's at homE only ME
GOOD GaME.
When i tot if i slp wak eup will be better,
But it jus gt WORSE LIKE FUK.
and every 15 mins i wake up!!!
TIME PASSES Damn freakiN SLOW.

SO i suffered the whole day ytd.
I almost faint. (Im serious)

the main point ... is
TOday i stil not feeling well coz of my headach and fever
so i ask my mama to help me tk one more day MC
normalli can tk one.
Unless ur mc is more den 2 days~
den the nurse GL and the doc GL
Say i shld be fine by nw.

GUYS!!!!
WHEN U HV SERIOUS FLU, sneeze til my nose SKIN COME OUT,
HEADACHE til almost faint,
HAVIN HIGH FEVER.
And stomach feel pain here and THERE.
WILL 1 DAY CURE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

NB CB
The reasons i gt strength now to post an entry is coz i slp too much ytd.
I cant slp.
And i jus wan to fuking complain.

SO the doc wans me to go chk again
THEY TOT I DUN WAN go WK.
Fuk em.!

I go wk Can earn money lo rather den i come and pay u for 1 more day mc
FUKER!
coz my original doc is oversea, if nt i die oso wun wan to see this doc.

My mama come back sae they dun believe me,
I quite pissed, i change and went out.
let em CHK!!!!!!
CHIKEN BURGER!!!!
SO when i went in,

DOC: Why u haven ok??? (in a pissed tone)
ME: I gt bad headache, ytd i told u but u NV give me the medi for iT!
DOC: oh... (check on me)
ME: i gt fever ytd, and i shivered the whole day
DOC: did u chk e temp?
ME: ytd gt chk but nurse say i ok. but i gt fever the whole day ytd.
DOC immed ask e nurse to chk temp on mE.

Result out: i got fever. 38 degree.
Today i feel not much fever le, but it still 38
can u imagine ytd im worse den tt and i dun hv medi.
I guess ytd gt 39 degrEE
And i jus ate panadol as much as i cld.
JUS BCOZ E DOC nv giv me the MEDI
and the nurse say i dun hv FEVER!

But i see them gt panic face. ( coz i guess is their job to chk properly lo)
WAD IS ONE DAY shld recover.!! KNN [*sry i'm real pissed]

I rEALLI V PISSED
AND total i spent 49$ for both day.

YTD $29
TODAY $20 (cheaper but i feel they shldnt charge me)

FUK EM

IDIOT
NX time i die oso wun go to this DOC
I will wait til my doc is back fr overseas
AT least he will be damn nice and und.
EVen he ask u come chk is coz he wry
and charge u cheaper alot.

THIS DOC SUX
STIL TINK U FAKE
ASK U COME CHK AGAIN
REALLI SAI
WASTE MY MONEY
now i gt 7 different type of medi

I SEE LE oso wan puke.

DAMN IT

I tml die also wan/mus go wk,
Can u imagine i tml nt yet recover nid to tk mc again?
Den i will spent abt 100 for my 3 days medication FEE

FUK IT

Dance, can i giv up?

2008-05-06T06:53:00.000+08:00

Can i just give up on dance right now?

Because i feel demoralised again and again.

I'm living in fear...
The Thing that i love most, became the thing that i'm most afraid on.

Could somebody guide me?
Last time wheneva we all talk abt dance,
It's sth Happy ,cheerful, Relax.

Now when i start to talk about dance,
Inside me feel miserable =[

Horrible...

How can i dont care...
How can i treat nth Happened
How can i dance happily...

4yrs down the road
All i cld see is ______ in dance.
Happiest moment are my first 2 yrs.

well, what can i do.

Ya, to work even harder.
But i cant push myself at all.
The feeling sucks =/

You guys wont even und.

sighhhhh

2008-04-30T15:37:00.000+08:00

1) False hope always =[

2) Jealousy

3) Heartbroken

4) I can't be trust

5) Alone

6) Disappointments

7) Last Choice

8) Unwanted

9) Biasness

10) Ridiculous me

=[

fantazia 08

2008-04-21T12:16:00.000+08:00

FANTAZIA IS FINALLY OVER

Thanks all my cheorographers!!!

Mr TER Then
Ms BEccA TaY
Ms Yen Goh
Mr CHaO ONg
Ms AnN TAn

That all rite?

And thanks To my Get high girls =]
Thanks, though i really pissed off sometimes
But its for your own good ya =]

Dont hate me PLZ.

Love u girls.

Love my partners- fariD, Alex and yewSheng too

REST WELL Everyone!

Gonna miss dancing ...

bAck to work.
Boring life...

Aimless,

But i stil love my dear as much =]

Im very down

2008-04-03T16:27:00.000+08:00

Bitch~~~~~~~~

Bitch...

Bitch and Bitch

Ya, I'm not going to like u either.

Not going to let you bully me ~

Sigh
I feel useless most of the time
I'm an idiot.

Yes Yes im useless

but just shut the fuck up ok bitcH?

I carry a heavy heart everywhere recently

So i hope u will stay with me
If not its okie.
I noe hw to tk care of myself by now
Im a big big girl.

Not the childish one anymore
Have grown up too
So i guess i can handle everything
I can...

=/

I try my best
In everything...

BUt if it doent wk..
I cant do anything too

=[

2008-03-31T15:54:00.000+08:00

I must jia you in everything

Everything including my dance, work, and maybe R/s?

I'm tearing again..

I dont know what is happiness,
I cant feel it.
No one give it to me...
No one... including you.

I feel im just alone all this while...

Feeling down deep inside
But you dont care.. nor realise it ba...

No wry, Im wont even ctrl you.

=[

2008-03-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

Maybe...

there's alot of maybe
do u still care?

Or just took it for granted
maybe u dun even bother to read this

When someone gt the things they want,
They will just tk it for granted, am i rite?

Topics are getting boring,
Nth much to say about too.
Foods are getting cold
And yet there are still no topics.

Get sick of quarreling
Remain silent always
No answer
Just a blank face starred at me
Nothing came to me
Still... silent

Sick of aruging
TIred of it
for both u and me

Treat nothing happened

How can u bear to treat nth happen
each and everytime...

Its getting upset...
more and more...

Hurts

But u dont und

U jus neglect me in many ways

=[

miss dancing

2008-02-26T09:22:00.000+08:00

I MISS DANCING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I REALLY MISS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After Funka... till now,
I haven step into Our Studio and dancE with my fellow mates =[

I miss dancing...
I realised it is so important to me...
I cant stop...
NO matter how lousy i dancE
NO matter How suck am i...
I REALLY Love to danCe
That is sth nobody can STOP me

I miss the days all of us Dance happily together =]
I miss the fun and the tough training we all had
DO u GUYs miss it?

I miss it... =[

I WAN TO Step into the studio ASAP [[NRA de]]

I miss u guys alot

I miss Roughs Addicts,
I miss Static flow those GAYs
I miss ROugh Cut
I miss Lil Bratz
I miss NRA Lush [[the most ugly and dope costumes]]
I miss MANifesto [[Girl power ROX tt yr]]
I miss REbirth
I miss ZUt [[ the noobest 1st comp eva... lol]]

I miss ann's claSS
I very long nv attend her CLASS
omg...
i missed out alot

I MISS EVERYTHING

IM EXCITED FOR The Song and DANCE Production

we got 1.5mths to GO
And i haven get to learn a singlE Cheoro

ERMMMMMMMMmm
I promise i will dance my best
and will not let myself down at aLL
not at all [[ coz danzation i did... like fuk?]]

This production is interesting COz our very own ppl wil get to SING
And its not onli for 1-2 ppl who can sing well
IS for those really can sing and get to SING

OF coz im not singing la!
Look at my face,
I look like superstar but not up to the standard of singing
Im lack of tt talent...
lol
BUT i love to sing
TOO bad my mum giv birth to me with a superstar look but nt OTHER talentsssss
Which mean i gt no talents at all! ~~~~ LOL sound sad

BUT wadeva, I gt superstar look
COZ im eriko's SIS... JAPAN ~~~~

I can see ur faces ALL -.-

NB
lol

Ok i look like an idiot and im like shit
ooooooO i see u guys faces nw are =D

GO jia saI ok...

erm conclusion, i WAN TO DANCE LIKE MAD
tml im going to the sTUDIO finallY!!!
TO Learn retard TER's Cheoro!!!!

YES! finally!

Seriousli i always wan to learn TER, Chao, and lotsa other style
coz i nv learn this 2 idiot style b4.
maybe after saying this line, i wil be out of their ITEM. HAAHA
oh well..

Ah yen is going to SING 45min of caiqing song
TTs wad she told me
45MINS
NOT sec
LOLX LOLX

She tink she superstAR liao,
half e concert all sing by her
She act li hai now...
Act singer
ops... im her backgrd DAncer, so i dun Say much le...
In case im nt in her item too.
but anyway...

JIA UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

PEggy, can request i sing my sis song?
We combine... SPEED

U , nicole, me, shane, min

LOL
Ateishina i....
[[white love]]

Den we choose our backgrd dancers..... ?
LOLx
Ok its nt going to happen,
Im day dreaming~~~ LOL

Good luck to the ppl who's singing and cheoro the item =]

muack!